Oh, Lil, I'm glad you had your mother there for you. It was a void in my heart for many years that I didn't have one.
Trust me, I know how you feel about your son. I wish 36 were different. He makes everything so hard.
Big hugs for a wonderful couple who did ALL THEY COULD for their son. I can tell by the love in your posts that you have a heart of gold. Cling to your wonderful husband and try to enjoy your lives together. And one day your son will probably appreciate the two of you. You are both very special and he must know it somewhere. He is still pretty young.
