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<blockquote data-quote="Farmwife" data-source="post: 385448" data-attributes="member: 8617"><p>Thank you JJJ and patriots girl. Your posts were helpful albeit a sad sort of comfort. I hate that we all have been put through such misery and suffering, difficult child's included. This "curse" all of our families and difficult child's have been afflicted with is horrifying. Not that I would want to wish bad or jinx myself (I'm so paranoid from stress these days...) but I always thought something like a wheelchair type disability would make more sense, be easier. It's so black and white. It's sad but it isn't an emotional back and forth. </p><p> </p><p>Slsh, you got in my head in a very real way. You rattled my senses with some pretty brutal honesty. I needed it, thank you. Didn't like it but I needed it. I think you just became my Rita. I hate that fact...but again, thank you. I hate the fact that I have had to stop to burst into tears so many times before during and after posting on this forum, today being no exception. I'll feel better when I leave here today, feeling support but GEEZ the soul ache it takes to be a member here.</p><p> </p><p></p><p> </p><p>I like to find my pain buttons and push the heck out of them like running your tongue over a sore tooth every few minutes. Yes, it still hurts, why do I keep poking just to be sure? Yes, the more I poke the more it hurts so why do I keep poking obsessively? Why can't I stop? lol<img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite5" alt=":confused:" title="Confused :confused:" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":confused:" /></p><p> </p><p>My pain button is worries of difficult child's self esteem and ability to have meaningful relationships someday, assuming he is even marginally able to. He has a very low self esteem and abandonment issues. I worry if placement in Residential Treatment Center (RTC) will cause a lot of damage on top of what he already has. As exhausted as I am I still want him to have what he needs, I don't want to be a part of what makes him worse. I'm afraid of rejecting him in a way that he may not recover from. After all, underneath of that grown mans body with a demon controlling it is a very sad little 5 year old boy who got very unlucky genetically and never chose this for himself.</p><p> </p><p>Ah yes, guilt a many splendored object. *sigh*</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Farmwife, post: 385448, member: 8617"] Thank you JJJ and patriots girl. Your posts were helpful albeit a sad sort of comfort. I hate that we all have been put through such misery and suffering, difficult child's included. This "curse" all of our families and difficult child's have been afflicted with is horrifying. Not that I would want to wish bad or jinx myself (I'm so paranoid from stress these days...) but I always thought something like a wheelchair type disability would make more sense, be easier. It's so black and white. It's sad but it isn't an emotional back and forth. Slsh, you got in my head in a very real way. You rattled my senses with some pretty brutal honesty. I needed it, thank you. Didn't like it but I needed it. I think you just became my Rita. I hate that fact...but again, thank you. I hate the fact that I have had to stop to burst into tears so many times before during and after posting on this forum, today being no exception. I'll feel better when I leave here today, feeling support but GEEZ the soul ache it takes to be a member here. I like to find my pain buttons and push the heck out of them like running your tongue over a sore tooth every few minutes. Yes, it still hurts, why do I keep poking just to be sure? Yes, the more I poke the more it hurts so why do I keep poking obsessively? Why can't I stop? lol:confused1: My pain button is worries of difficult child's self esteem and ability to have meaningful relationships someday, assuming he is even marginally able to. He has a very low self esteem and abandonment issues. I worry if placement in Residential Treatment Center (RTC) will cause a lot of damage on top of what he already has. As exhausted as I am I still want him to have what he needs, I don't want to be a part of what makes him worse. I'm afraid of rejecting him in a way that he may not recover from. After all, underneath of that grown mans body with a demon controlling it is a very sad little 5 year old boy who got very unlucky genetically and never chose this for himself. Ah yes, guilt a many splendored object. *sigh* [/QUOTE]
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