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Liahona
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Today is the day. The day difficult child 1 goes on the visit he doesn't think he'll come back alive from. I have done everything I can. I have talked with lawyers, teachers, case managers, therapists, cps, relatives, the domestic violence shelter, the court appointed drop-off place. They tried talking to X about it. His response. Its all the medications fault.
difficult child 1 is having a break from reality. Through all of this emotional trauma he has been playing soccer every day with the other kids at recess. He will come home with reports of how great he is at getting the ball. He will tell me how he is twisting the other kids arms around, tackling their legs, grabbing their shirt collars, or grabbing an ear in order to get the ball. difficult child 1 will tell me that the school isn't giving him any consequences for these increasingly violent actions. I talked with the school on Monday about this. I called again this morning. The school has had his aide and the playground aides watching the soccer games. difficult child 1 isn't actually doing the violent actions he thinks he is doing. In his mind he is being aggressive and getting away with it. Everyone else isn't seeing things as difficult child 1 is.
I might be taking him to the phos instead of visitation today. I think the phos would be safer anyway. I'm going to talk to his therapist about it this afternoon. The abuse and lack of response from anyone is driving my son crazy.
I think I'd like to join him in the phos. I'm not functioning well right now. husband is kinda worried about me. But, if I go too I won't be able to go the meeting. I have to at least look like I'm held together and functioning well. I even have to look cordial to X for the court and drop-off place, or they will accuse me of planting this fear in difficult child 1. The laws and attitudes here are very skewed to the dads.
My lawyer is going to have a brain storming meeting with his staff and me. Maybe we can find a way somehow to keep difficult child 1 safe. I wouldn't hold my breath though.
Pray for us. Hopefully X will shoot himself with his own gun. (Yes, he is always armed.)
difficult child 1 is having a break from reality. Through all of this emotional trauma he has been playing soccer every day with the other kids at recess. He will come home with reports of how great he is at getting the ball. He will tell me how he is twisting the other kids arms around, tackling their legs, grabbing their shirt collars, or grabbing an ear in order to get the ball. difficult child 1 will tell me that the school isn't giving him any consequences for these increasingly violent actions. I talked with the school on Monday about this. I called again this morning. The school has had his aide and the playground aides watching the soccer games. difficult child 1 isn't actually doing the violent actions he thinks he is doing. In his mind he is being aggressive and getting away with it. Everyone else isn't seeing things as difficult child 1 is.
I might be taking him to the phos instead of visitation today. I think the phos would be safer anyway. I'm going to talk to his therapist about it this afternoon. The abuse and lack of response from anyone is driving my son crazy.
I think I'd like to join him in the phos. I'm not functioning well right now. husband is kinda worried about me. But, if I go too I won't be able to go the meeting. I have to at least look like I'm held together and functioning well. I even have to look cordial to X for the court and drop-off place, or they will accuse me of planting this fear in difficult child 1. The laws and attitudes here are very skewed to the dads.
My lawyer is going to have a brain storming meeting with his staff and me. Maybe we can find a way somehow to keep difficult child 1 safe. I wouldn't hold my breath though.
Pray for us. Hopefully X will shoot himself with his own gun. (Yes, he is always armed.)