Mattsmom277
Active Member
I am not up to posting all of the crazy uncalled for drama right now. But I could really use the donated patience and spare strength sent my way if you all can spare some.
easy child's father is, for the third time in 12 years, punitively and foolishly suing me again for full custody. He and his wife are relocating out of town again and he called last week and announced he was moving to which I said okay. Then he said "we are taking easy child with us". Needless to say it has been upsetting and I really am so sick of this koi. I'm running plum out of reserves. I've got enough on my plate medically, the trial with my father, etc.
Tons of stupidity has occurred since that announcement from him and I'm just bitter, angry, disillusioned by man kind as a whole, and no clue where to dredge up more "fight". I just want peace. To live my quiet life hurting nobody and asking nobody for anything. Just leave me alone with my minuscule world of a few trusted loved ones, living poor day to day in my cozy safe little nest. I ask for so little and can be happy with that. I am learning to really just hate people. And I'm angry that now I have to go to war with a man so hell bent in control that he will sacrifice the emotional well being of our daughter. He had her keeping this a secret from me for a week. I about flipped my lid.
Any spare sanity would be appreciated. If ever I needed it, it's now. I'm having to work harder than I think I can to hold it together. I don't even have a safe place to cry or call a friend to unload as easy child is home and I'm trying so hard to keep up appearances. Even that I am resenting right now. It's bad enough to be nearly alone in the world. Even worse when I have to fake normal and can't unload on S/O incase easy child sees me stressing out. I'm done like dinner.
easy child's father is, for the third time in 12 years, punitively and foolishly suing me again for full custody. He and his wife are relocating out of town again and he called last week and announced he was moving to which I said okay. Then he said "we are taking easy child with us". Needless to say it has been upsetting and I really am so sick of this koi. I'm running plum out of reserves. I've got enough on my plate medically, the trial with my father, etc.
Tons of stupidity has occurred since that announcement from him and I'm just bitter, angry, disillusioned by man kind as a whole, and no clue where to dredge up more "fight". I just want peace. To live my quiet life hurting nobody and asking nobody for anything. Just leave me alone with my minuscule world of a few trusted loved ones, living poor day to day in my cozy safe little nest. I ask for so little and can be happy with that. I am learning to really just hate people. And I'm angry that now I have to go to war with a man so hell bent in control that he will sacrifice the emotional well being of our daughter. He had her keeping this a secret from me for a week. I about flipped my lid.
Any spare sanity would be appreciated. If ever I needed it, it's now. I'm having to work harder than I think I can to hold it together. I don't even have a safe place to cry or call a friend to unload as easy child is home and I'm trying so hard to keep up appearances. Even that I am resenting right now. It's bad enough to be nearly alone in the world. Even worse when I have to fake normal and can't unload on S/O incase easy child sees me stressing out. I'm done like dinner.