Mitzi Paws
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Hi all.Had to take difficult child to ER on Saturday because she threatened to kill herself with a knife.That was after she had earlier in the day told our older daughter that she was going to kill her.She was evaluated and found not to be a danger to herself or any of us.So we went home.Then on our way home we found out that we had accidently went to the wrong ER.There are 2 ER's within about 1 mile of each other.So, after a horrendous day of being in an ER room for 6 hours we now have the knowlegde that soon we will be getting a huge bill that won't be covered by our insurance.Some days are hard to get through.Today was one of them for me.I am flooded today with feelings of failure and guilt.Sometimes those feelings are so strong that I don't know if I will ever get past them.Sometimes I am so overwhelmed by just getting through one more day that I just want to go to bed and never get up.I am not suicidal but I understand how people get there.Maybe I'm on my way.I hate these feelings I am having.I guess that it is time to go see my counselor again.Tomorrow I have an appointment to have difficult child evaluated by someone who can change her medications around since they obviously aren't working.It is so hard to see your child go through these things and balance the side of you that has so much pity for them you can hardly breathe and the other side who just wants to scream from the frustration of dealing with all of it.Well, I must go and begin the next battle of the day-homework time.Take care all!!