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This morning was more of the same from difficult child towards his little 5 yr old easy child brother. easy child is very content entertaining himself playing with toys, using his imagination, etc.. but difficult child just can't let him be! He has to go over and basically be a bully by intentionally messing up what easy child is doing...knocking over his buildings, cars, blocks, or just touching what ever easy child is doing. I have tried to get them to play together (figuring difficult child just wants to play too) but then the game "has to be played difficult child's way or no way" if you know what I mean. Then easy child gets all upset because he too is head strong and stands up for himself, which gets difficult child even more worked up and everything escalates from there!
Anyway, lately I find myself losing it more with difficult child rather than controlling myself (probably because I can't take it anymore the way he treats the family) and saying mean and hurtful things to him. Like I called him a bully this morning and told him he was mean. Of course he kept mimicking me which made me keep going! I then told him he doesn't deserve to get student of the month in school ( he told me last nite he thought it might be him this month and he is actually a great student, luckily) until he works on being brother of the month at home!
By now the bus was coming so he left for school and now I feel terrible about what I said and some other things I have been saying when he is behaving terribly at home...acting like a child going back at him, rather than an adult who is supposed to keep it together even if I am being verbally and at times physically abused!
I will apologize when he gets home because even parents make mistakes. Anyone else ever find themselves acting immature like this?
Jan
Anyway, lately I find myself losing it more with difficult child rather than controlling myself (probably because I can't take it anymore the way he treats the family) and saying mean and hurtful things to him. Like I called him a bully this morning and told him he was mean. Of course he kept mimicking me which made me keep going! I then told him he doesn't deserve to get student of the month in school ( he told me last nite he thought it might be him this month and he is actually a great student, luckily) until he works on being brother of the month at home!
By now the bus was coming so he left for school and now I feel terrible about what I said and some other things I have been saying when he is behaving terribly at home...acting like a child going back at him, rather than an adult who is supposed to keep it together even if I am being verbally and at times physically abused!
I will apologize when he gets home because even parents make mistakes. Anyone else ever find themselves acting immature like this?
Jan