This is my secret place - I sometimes feel like coming here is the only place in the world where I read about others like me. After adoption - the guilt of what my family has been through dealing with Blue's Fetal Alcohol Syndrome (FAS) and emerging mood disorder/Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD) has been so hard on me. I know it is not my fault and I do see him making progress - healing - having more good days than bad..... I have a deep desire to adopt again - as hard as it is some days - I would love another child. And so I feel guilty about that - like "how dare I want another child when some days we live in the house of insanity" What do you guys think? Especially adoptive parents - would you do it again?