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Getting ready for bed, had news on while I got ready. Earlier today I had a car full of kids, mine and their friends...driving around town doing errands (actually it was getting difficult children first PAYCHECK!!!!! WOOO HOO!)
and there were just police and lights and sirens EVERYWHERE! One of the kids says hey Mrs PCs mom, it is getting scary being here anymore....like being in a tenement or something. All the kids have lived here their whole life and when I moved here 20 yrs ago, population was 2,000 and is now 20,000- the county has also grown simiarly. ANd yes, we ARE in a negative transition, and yeah, it HAS gotten quite scary lately around here.
Then difficult child says MOM the city NEWS from TV is here!
Sure enough, she was right. BUT they were not by all the active police, they were over by our.....(one of our) nurseing homes. Specifically - one I worked in, more specifically The One where I did become certified. My heart sank, my chin quivered, but then in the hustle and bustle of haveing mobs of teens keeping me busy- I moved on to the next thing that grabbed their attention- and forgot about it-----BUT I KNEW.
the nurseing home has been being investigated for mercy killings, spanning a kinda long time period and several patients......:-( (sniffle, yes, I am crying) I had a sad feeling the news being here meant the investigation was done and the outcome was not good. Just now I saw a crawler on TV and yes.....some people have been arrested.
I am just so very very deeply sad for the victims......and their families....and the families of the nurses arrested. (altho as yet I do not know WHO - which nurse or which patients are involved)
Now, yes, I DID work Hospice, as well. over the years....BUT Hospice is NOT "mercy killings" NOT. EVEN. CLOSE.
And for a change, my normally curious (nosey?) nature does not want to know who. I do NOT want to read maybe my teacher, or someone I worked side by side with or someone I admired- maybe someone who was instrumental in me finally getting my nurseing license after me being a nurses aide -I do not want to find out one of those people was involved. It will break my heart. I also do not want to know which of my beloved patients died sooner than maybe they would have otherwise. Maybe before they finished their ea rthly business, or before they got to say goodbye. Yes, I loved my patients. Long term care is special, and you can and do form strong bonds with your patients. It will break my heart to know they were murdered and that they did not after all die of natural causes. I KNOW the aides I worked side by side with - we worked SO hard, under awful difficulties- being shortstaffed becuz it is hard to attract people to fill the job.....we had double and triple workload daily and we worked extra shifts nearly daily for the same reason......and we gave it our all becuz it was in our hearts to DO this job.....and it sure was very hard physical labor, BUT the emotional rewards were incredible. (LOL, sniffle- I remember telling my own therapist who actually had also been a nurse before a therapist and who had ALSO worked there- that I felt guilty being PAID to do my work there, even tho it was so hard, becuz I truly did love my patients)
Us aides did work SO hard......trying SO hard to take good care of all those people. I just cannot bear the idea someone would end their lives too soon.
Yes, I know the reasons mercy killers give as their reason for doing such things......but "mercy killers" were always someone somewhere ELSE. Not anyone I knew, not anywhere I was.
I am powering off my webtv and turning off my TV and........I think once again, I just do NOT want to see tomorrows newspaper. And when "I" do not want to read my paper, it makes my husband and kids worry. I ALWAYS read my paper. first thing. (I tell them I need to read the obits to make sure I am still alive, and did not die and everyone forgot to tell me, and my kids do LOL at that.......dark humor, maybe from working in that field? Maybe from living near the funeral home, and I want to know whos service it is and why it is SO packed? I dunno, but I do read the WHOLE paper every morning)
and there were just police and lights and sirens EVERYWHERE! One of the kids says hey Mrs PCs mom, it is getting scary being here anymore....like being in a tenement or something. All the kids have lived here their whole life and when I moved here 20 yrs ago, population was 2,000 and is now 20,000- the county has also grown simiarly. ANd yes, we ARE in a negative transition, and yeah, it HAS gotten quite scary lately around here.
Then difficult child says MOM the city NEWS from TV is here!
Sure enough, she was right. BUT they were not by all the active police, they were over by our.....(one of our) nurseing homes. Specifically - one I worked in, more specifically The One where I did become certified. My heart sank, my chin quivered, but then in the hustle and bustle of haveing mobs of teens keeping me busy- I moved on to the next thing that grabbed their attention- and forgot about it-----BUT I KNEW.
the nurseing home has been being investigated for mercy killings, spanning a kinda long time period and several patients......:-( (sniffle, yes, I am crying) I had a sad feeling the news being here meant the investigation was done and the outcome was not good. Just now I saw a crawler on TV and yes.....some people have been arrested.
I am just so very very deeply sad for the victims......and their families....and the families of the nurses arrested. (altho as yet I do not know WHO - which nurse or which patients are involved)
Now, yes, I DID work Hospice, as well. over the years....BUT Hospice is NOT "mercy killings" NOT. EVEN. CLOSE.
And for a change, my normally curious (nosey?) nature does not want to know who. I do NOT want to read maybe my teacher, or someone I worked side by side with or someone I admired- maybe someone who was instrumental in me finally getting my nurseing license after me being a nurses aide -I do not want to find out one of those people was involved. It will break my heart. I also do not want to know which of my beloved patients died sooner than maybe they would have otherwise. Maybe before they finished their ea rthly business, or before they got to say goodbye. Yes, I loved my patients. Long term care is special, and you can and do form strong bonds with your patients. It will break my heart to know they were murdered and that they did not after all die of natural causes. I KNOW the aides I worked side by side with - we worked SO hard, under awful difficulties- being shortstaffed becuz it is hard to attract people to fill the job.....we had double and triple workload daily and we worked extra shifts nearly daily for the same reason......and we gave it our all becuz it was in our hearts to DO this job.....and it sure was very hard physical labor, BUT the emotional rewards were incredible. (LOL, sniffle- I remember telling my own therapist who actually had also been a nurse before a therapist and who had ALSO worked there- that I felt guilty being PAID to do my work there, even tho it was so hard, becuz I truly did love my patients)
Us aides did work SO hard......trying SO hard to take good care of all those people. I just cannot bear the idea someone would end their lives too soon.
Yes, I know the reasons mercy killers give as their reason for doing such things......but "mercy killers" were always someone somewhere ELSE. Not anyone I knew, not anywhere I was.
I am powering off my webtv and turning off my TV and........I think once again, I just do NOT want to see tomorrows newspaper. And when "I" do not want to read my paper, it makes my husband and kids worry. I ALWAYS read my paper. first thing. (I tell them I need to read the obits to make sure I am still alive, and did not die and everyone forgot to tell me, and my kids do LOL at that.......dark humor, maybe from working in that field? Maybe from living near the funeral home, and I want to know whos service it is and why it is SO packed? I dunno, but I do read the WHOLE paper every morning)