Well, lets see... first Q's doctor called and all the blood test results were great, no diabetes, not thyroid issues, no anything except even with 1000 units of Vitamin D it was still lowish....but it is much closer to normal. He has not been gaining at the rate he was... well at least his clothes still fit and I was buying new clothes every two weeks so I think it was a growth spurt and that is wonderful... I am good with that, just didn't want a 300 lb kid from a 90 lb kid in a year! Still I think the Lithium does nothing for him but I am unwilling to touch anything until summer.... just in case..... Can I just whine a little.... while I like Valentines day ok... I mean big deal really, but as usual... party days at school just s*ck. I just proactively told them that he was going to have a s*ckie day and I had a dr. appointment so just hang tough (probably bad idea since tomorrow is the every two weeks now IEP...ugggg WHINE number two.. my stomach does not do well with these IEP issues... uggg So, I went to the dr myself and apparently back when I snapped my finger backwards (refresher.. when Q was in the hospital I sat up in bed and my finger from the knuckle up snapped all the way back and then back to the right place and instantly started swelling, I then fainted from the pain... oh the drama, LOL).. well that was the beg. of NOV and every day it swells, the lines in my knuckle kind of disappear.. yeah it is huge... guess I can't get married ever now! the ring finger is gross.... so apparently it is called an avulsion fracture and I didn't do anything to hurt it more because they would have spinted it and now I tape it to keep the swelling down. She said since it is functional (the tendons tore off and pulled some of the bone with it... UGGG no wonder it hurt, just saying it makes me queasy) It will just permanently never straighten or bend all the way again. She said to try to keep the range so only tape as needed.... My sinus infection is getting better and yes, she laughed at my emotional onset of menopause..... which seems to be back to peri menopuause.... I had to get back xrays because the pain is so right in the bones.... so there is a no fun cost but this place accepts small payments till the end of time so I did it... AND finally I lost another 9 lbs! yeah me. (as I ate my chicken burrito from taco bell tonight, oh well) Finally, I am just not thrilled about going to an IEP meeting that I feel will be unproductive. If the goal is to go from person to person and read off every single awful thing Q said or did to each and every person and then say good bye... well both the psychiatric and law advocate said we will just end it and leave. I am good with that. uggg. We do have to END it at one hour this time... no more ugly marathons... because the psychiatric and I are going to go look at the school again. He hasn't seen it yet. I am nearly done with the private school app and will drop it off Thursday. OH.... I forgot... after Q had a FIT in the waiting room of the psychologist today, punching me in the arm and pounding on me... (so the woman got to see it).... he left and worked with her ok... then I had to get my rx and while in the store he asks for money.... NO WAY... then he says but I picked out this Valentines day card and flower for you....... WELL as I have told many of you before I get NOTHING from him usually... nothing on my birthday, nothing on Xmas etc... unless someone else directs it... SO YES, I gave him 3 bucks and bought my own Valentines day flower/card.... LOL So that is my rambly update... as overwhelmed as I should be, I am just a little off and feel remarkably like this is so beyond anything I can control anymore I feel a little numb. Is that weird? I am not checked out or anything but I feel like not just armor is on... more like a mental block ... every defense is up... I guess that is the essence of the Serenity Prayer.... maybe I am gaining the wisdom to know the difference???