Whatever I said - I take it back - There is NO WAY I am going to be able to let this little angel of mine go back to her Daddy on Friday. At "Namma and Grrrrrrandpa's house" she has a fence in yard, she has grass, she has toys, she has baths, vet care, extra special food, special training, discipline, love, we play with her endlessly, took her in the pool for swimming lessons in case she falls in the pool at the fosters - and now she is sleeping right next to me in bed at night - I mean like a glove. in the morning she's lying there waiting for me to open an eye and does the submissive roll-over, love me and blow zerbits on my belly Namma. Affectionately - since she is spoiled we have called her Princess Sparkle Fanny (thanks BBK) and since DF can't ever get it right he calls her Princess Glitter Britches. Her name is Pootie. She's 8 weeks old, white with a black patch over her left eye and 2 black ears, one solid circle of black on her back left pink pad - I kiss that foot every night. At the fosters, there is no fence - she could run away or get - ? on the road. there are fleas, 35 kids in daycare, sand no grass, and she's not getting attention like she does here with US! THey have rattle snakes on their property and she won't be in air conditioning all day. I'm heartsick and trying to find a place to hide her - lol. Even DF who says very little about it has made comments that it's going to be tough to let her go back to "that" and it's not "that" bad - we're digging deep. lol. It's good enough for our son - but he's got to work -when is she going to have someone to love her? This is so unfair.....I WANT HER HERE. So whatever I have EVER said about giving back a grandchild or not going to get a grandchild I take it all back - lol I can see where the YOUNG are meant to raise little ones because WOW she takes some energy from you - but that little freckly belly makes it all worth it when she is lying on the bed, getting her baby powder for itchy belly and gives you a little kiss - and smile. I think I'm taking her to work with me tomorrow and NOT going home - lol. oh yea and I saw a doctor after a year or so - and he LISTENED to me - he thinks I have fibroids or a blood clot (that explains the 14" ankles on one leg) and has scheduled a bunch of tests. And listened to me when I said I think THIS is wrong. I was amazed. He is about as gay as they come, but LOVELY person and sings Barry Manilow songs in the hallways. I didn't really get any answers yesterday - but I did get a TON of tests scheduled and I have FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY got someone to do an pelvic ultrasound for my Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome - and MAYBE (cross fingers) they'll just take the whole works out. I would not mind that at all. Been asking for 10 years. Maybe I wont' have to take Iron tablets ever again? LOL.