fallen angel
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Hello All..Haven't been on in some time but once again I need a soft place to land....it just never ends....so for the update...1st difficult child is doing well...working two jobs this summer...one he has had for a year...finished first year of college on deans list...drives and has had a girlfriend for over a year....doing well but always I have my eyes wide open..takes awhile to gain the trust again but we are proud of him..
2nd difficult child is not doing well...graduated HS by the skin of his teeth...quits one job after the other...no interest in driving..plans on college in september but no way to get there and no interest in doing the paperwork...he is def drinking and I have heard he is doing drugs maybe a little dealing if there is such a thing....not doing his community service..so only a matter of time till we are back in court...he thinks he knows it all..no real communication with him...when asked anything about driving, community service I am told to leave it alone...so I do....just heard he was up to no good the other night and I know it is only a matter of time till the phone rings..the hardest thing is seeing it happen and not being able to do anything about it...as much as you want to help you are helpless...and I am tired..real tired...Every step we have taken to see him fall so we can get this going in the right direction is underminded by someone or something...and the worse part is he tells me "you see, I never loose" and smirks....now that is scary...sometimes I am so scared I find myself holding on to myself so I don't fall....how I wish there was an easy way....once was bad enough but again?..thoughts?
2nd difficult child is not doing well...graduated HS by the skin of his teeth...quits one job after the other...no interest in driving..plans on college in september but no way to get there and no interest in doing the paperwork...he is def drinking and I have heard he is doing drugs maybe a little dealing if there is such a thing....not doing his community service..so only a matter of time till we are back in court...he thinks he knows it all..no real communication with him...when asked anything about driving, community service I am told to leave it alone...so I do....just heard he was up to no good the other night and I know it is only a matter of time till the phone rings..the hardest thing is seeing it happen and not being able to do anything about it...as much as you want to help you are helpless...and I am tired..real tired...Every step we have taken to see him fall so we can get this going in the right direction is underminded by someone or something...and the worse part is he tells me "you see, I never loose" and smirks....now that is scary...sometimes I am so scared I find myself holding on to myself so I don't fall....how I wish there was an easy way....once was bad enough but again?..thoughts?