Happy Friday all, if you're like me, I dread weekends, they are the worst for us. So fridays from 730-430 I am without stress of difficult child. OK, so my difficult child just turned 7 last week!! Happy Birthday difficult child!! He has screamed at us 2 times in the past year about wanting to die. Once because we were going out to eat and he didnt like the choice of restaurant, so he kicked the back of husband seat wil driving and thrashed a little bit and screamed I want to die, I turned and said why would you say that, he said i dunno so I yelled back at him, dont ever want to hear you say that ever again. And again at the dr's while waiting to give blood, he said he wished he had a gun so he could shoot himself in the head, then he said he wished he had a gun to shoot me in the head. I didnt react to either of these because we were in a hallway with alot of people around, not sure if anyone heard so I didnt want to make a scene. Then yesterday, he said it about 5 times. It was a 1/2 day for the kids last day of school. After lunch, my easy child's friend called and asked if she could come over, I said "sure I will drop you off in 15 minutes" difficult child took a huge fit, he wanted to go, it wasnt fair, threw himself into the recliner chair screaming i want to die, he said it maybe 3 times within those 15 mintues. He didnt want to get in the car to drop her off, but I kept moving saying you're coming, when we get home you can play video games without her disturbing you. trying to make him feel better about her leaving. Nope, he stood in the garage while we were in the car, we had a stare down, he stomped his way into the car and was not a happy camper. during the 1 minute drive, he potty talked, replacing words with "poop" "pee" "stupid" "bum". This potty talk thing is new, whenever he is upset, he will do this replace words with inappropriate words. He also likes swears.....the other night he was saying "He!!.....O" saying that he isnt saying a bad word, just saying hello slowly, he spells out words when he wants, its like he is so fascinated with them it weird. anyways, after dropping her off, he told easy child "hope you have a poopy time you stupid head", if it wasnt him, i probably would have cracked a smile. On the way back home, I offered him a piece of gum which he loves and said "no I dont want any of your stupid gum" and started pushing the back of my seat I said "please stop you are distracting mommie and I dont wanna crash"....he said "well I wanna crash us so we can die". I asked again why would you say that, I said "people would miss us and be very said if we died" he said "i dont care, no one likes me and you guys hate me" We were slient for the rest of 60 second drive. Came home, he continued for a bit, then went to play video games and ended up with me watching tv and was OK for the time being. later on he was so fresh and rude I could have smacked his mouth right off, I am not used to the fresh, rude back talking, he normally isnt like that. He also was biting his upper arm or something like that, and I heard him and looked at him and he left a huge bruise on his arm, asked him what and why and said "i dunno, i was bored", looked more like a hickey. My question is, how serious should I be taking him? does he know what he saying when he says I want to die? I wonder if he knows its gets me upset so he says it rather than understanding the finality of life. Like does he know there is such a thing as suicide and that he can actually end his life if he really wanted to? I dont think he does, but I dont want to take what he is saying too lightly either.