I seem to always start thinking too much and get stressed out just when I think I'm getting things back on schedule. I was thinking about this meeting I had with psychiatrist and others. psychiatrist was asking about difficult child and adhd. I said he'd never been officially diagnosis'd with adhd. Ok- difficult child's regular psychiatrist calls him adhd whenever difficult child is symptommatic, then removes it when he's stable. I think it's because difficult child meets criteria at that time and does test out as having adhd during those times. This psychiatrist asked if difficult child had ever been on a stimulant and I told him no. Now, I'm thinking that if this psychiatrist is noticing that difficult child is hyper right now, then I hope he can believe that difficult child isn't always this way. I did tell them that his normal, stable character is a little more on the shy side- not too shy or withdrawn, but he takes a little warming up period before delving into being active and buddy-buddy- even with other boys his own age. I'm glad he's re-evaluation'ing the BiPolar (BP) diagnosis, but I sure don't want him dropping that and adding adhd- and I sure don't want him putting difficult child on stims. Even if there is a remote chance they they help him now and don't make him manic, what happens 3 mos from now when difficult child is in a stable period and he's on these things? I got something in the mail from "witness and victim protection". It didn't make my day. I'll call them and tell them to take me off their list- it was my son for goodness sake. I wasn't physically hurt- it was stopped- I'm emotionally devestated because our lives will never be the same. Then, I got copied on a form that this place sent to the courts asking if they wanted to approve or disapprove for difficult child to go outside with supervision AT ALL. It allows the judge to designate someone else (ie- PO) to make the choice and sign it. Well, difficult child may not get a breath of fresh air for a long time. I miss my stable son and I don't know if he'll ever be able to be stable again. I don't see how he can ever have a normal life again. This hoovers.