After the incident last week, I just have no tolerance for my difficult child. I can't even say or type difficult child without having animosity. Compassion, kindness, any of those types of words are just not going on in our house. I know it is affecting her because she is trying to hug me all the time and kiss me, and ask me if I am her baby girl still. I just say yes, but I just want to be left alone right now. I don't want her hanging on me or even touching me right now. I had to work later last night, she kept calling me telling me how much she misses me. I am just not into it. I have been spending extra time with my oldest daughter and really enjoying myself. I just don't seem to be able to get over what she has done, the bruises haven't even gone down and she wants everything to go back to the way it was. I know we have to live together for many more years, I just want to disaccociate and she's only 11. Maybe I am just over worked and over tired and I hope it gets better. Her father is dying right now and I cannot imagine how badly that is going to hurt. He has cancer and has refused to see her this year because he is looking so badly and has been so sick. I don't even know how to prepare her for this. URH. I have to get my emotions in check and hope it happens fast. Thank you for listening.
Jody
Jody