Littleboylost: So heartbreaking . . . wishing you and your family the best. This stuff is not for the faint of heart.
Today (right now) my grandson appears to be sober, is still working, going to meetings, etc.
I need to attend to my health a little bit better. I laid down some boundaries with respect to interactions in my home (he can be angry and confrontational). I want peace, above all else.
I am going to find ways to take care of myself today.
I have worries about stuff related to him (his phone is not working, I am concerned about his car) - I have to let go and have faith that these things will resolve.
I am reading a metaphysical book which talks about "purpose" in life, etc. From this perspective, it is all about learning. I am struggling to figure out what I am learning in this life. Most of it seems to be negative and I don't think that's the point of life (for instance, I have learned that people you love can't be trusted, that there are mean people in the world, etc.) I am not sure what positive things I have learned and according to this theory, if you don't learn, you are doomed to repeat. Not a fan of repeating. So looking for positive stuff I have learned (that would merit a life to learn them - not just trivial stuff). So far, I am coming up blank!