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bran155
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She looks FANTASTIC!!!
I was on my way to the laundry mat and my husband called and said that my daughter was just at the house looking for me. She was upset that I was not home. He accused her of taking his sneakers, she swore she didn't, she left. (guess what, she didn't, we later found them!!!) Anyway, she called my cell phone. She said "Mommy, I miss you , I need to see you", in this sweet little voice. It was as if my little girl had returned to her body. The alien was gone. I panicked, I thought something was wrong! I asked her if she was okay, she said she was, she just wanted to hug me. Here come the tears!!! I was so afraid to see her. I told her what laundry mat I was going to and she came there. She was with some guy. (seemed very nice) I waited outside the laundry mat for her. All the while shaking as I was so afraid of what I would see. They pull up and out comes this BEAUTIFUL young lady, running up to me with a huge smile on her face. She ran up and embraced me with the warmest hug. I was shocked at how wonderful she looked. She was dressed just nicely, did not look like a hooch, her hair was done beautifully, her nails, and her make up. She just had a glow about her. She looked healthy, like she has been really taking care of herself. I was pleasantly surprised.
She just kept saying that she missed me so much and that she loved me more than anything. She said she just can't live here anymore. She has a JOB and rents a room. She said she is serving drinks in a bar. (not my choice of careers for her, but it could be worse) As soon as she said she worked in a bar, the flags went up and the bells went off - STRIPPER??? I said "Please tell me your not stripping!!!" She said "Hell NO, I would never do that, I have a real job mom, be proud of me". The guy she was with assured me that she was a good girl. He said that he doesn't hang out with people that would strip, that she is a good kid. What???? I was shocked!!! She also told me that she was in the studio with some friends and they asked her to sing on one of their tracks!!! She was beaming with pride as she was telling all of this to me. I just kept telling her how beautiful she was. I just could not believe how wonderful she looked. I truly expected to see a total mess come out of that car. I was so wrong!!
She kept hugging and kissing me. She must have told me she loved me a million times. She truly just wanted to see her mommy. She didn't ask me for anything, just love. I gave her the mom speech, take care of yourself, be safe always, don't get in any trouble, carry yourself with dignity and so on..... I was just so amazed at how together she was, physically and mentally. She just seemed so grown up. She only stayed maybe 15 minutes. She gave me a big hug and kiss and said that she had to go but she would keep in touch and that no matter what I was so important to her. She is sorry for everything and that she loves me. She got in the car and I could not fight the tears back. She said "Mommy please don't cry, I am okay, I am doing good, please, you are going to make me cry, I love you". She promised she would call me, she blew me a kiss and drove off.
It was so bitter sweet. In a weird way I am so PROUD of her. Even though she is technically on the run, she is actually making a life for herself. I am so sad today, I miss her. I haven't seen that little girl in a very long time. It was her, the real Brandie, the one I gave birth to, the one with that sweet heart, bright smile and big beautiful eyes. I can't stop crying now. It is a different cry though. It is a happy/sad cry! I am overwhelmed by how mature she seemed. How together she was. I so was not expecting that.
Now, I want to call the DA and drop all charges. I do not want her to go back to jail. I mean this is not the life I would have chosen for her but she could be doing so much worse. In fact, I expected her to be much worse off. She has a JOB and pays rent!!! I must be dreaming!!! I don't want her to get caught now. I almost want to help her stay away. I won't, but I truly want to. At this point I really doubt the DA would be willing to drop the charges as he has given her two chances and she messed them both up. This is her second bench warrant, second time she skipped out on court, so I think it is a done deal. What do you guys think? Should I try to drop the charges? I just think she is doing well and going back to jail would only set her back, she will only regress in jail and I really am so proud of her. Is that strange? What do I do? Do you think that the DA would even be willing to just let this go? She doesn't have a criminal record.
In any event, I am a proud mama today. My heart is filled with joy at this moment. Our bond is strong. We have a real connection. I felt it last night and so did she. I miss my little girl so much today. I just can't stop the tears.
Thanks for listening. And thank you all for all of your good thoughts and prayers for my baby girl. They seem to be working!
Shawna
I was on my way to the laundry mat and my husband called and said that my daughter was just at the house looking for me. She was upset that I was not home. He accused her of taking his sneakers, she swore she didn't, she left. (guess what, she didn't, we later found them!!!) Anyway, she called my cell phone. She said "Mommy, I miss you , I need to see you", in this sweet little voice. It was as if my little girl had returned to her body. The alien was gone. I panicked, I thought something was wrong! I asked her if she was okay, she said she was, she just wanted to hug me. Here come the tears!!! I was so afraid to see her. I told her what laundry mat I was going to and she came there. She was with some guy. (seemed very nice) I waited outside the laundry mat for her. All the while shaking as I was so afraid of what I would see. They pull up and out comes this BEAUTIFUL young lady, running up to me with a huge smile on her face. She ran up and embraced me with the warmest hug. I was shocked at how wonderful she looked. She was dressed just nicely, did not look like a hooch, her hair was done beautifully, her nails, and her make up. She just had a glow about her. She looked healthy, like she has been really taking care of herself. I was pleasantly surprised.
She just kept saying that she missed me so much and that she loved me more than anything. She said she just can't live here anymore. She has a JOB and rents a room. She said she is serving drinks in a bar. (not my choice of careers for her, but it could be worse) As soon as she said she worked in a bar, the flags went up and the bells went off - STRIPPER??? I said "Please tell me your not stripping!!!" She said "Hell NO, I would never do that, I have a real job mom, be proud of me". The guy she was with assured me that she was a good girl. He said that he doesn't hang out with people that would strip, that she is a good kid. What???? I was shocked!!! She also told me that she was in the studio with some friends and they asked her to sing on one of their tracks!!! She was beaming with pride as she was telling all of this to me. I just kept telling her how beautiful she was. I just could not believe how wonderful she looked. I truly expected to see a total mess come out of that car. I was so wrong!!
She kept hugging and kissing me. She must have told me she loved me a million times. She truly just wanted to see her mommy. She didn't ask me for anything, just love. I gave her the mom speech, take care of yourself, be safe always, don't get in any trouble, carry yourself with dignity and so on..... I was just so amazed at how together she was, physically and mentally. She just seemed so grown up. She only stayed maybe 15 minutes. She gave me a big hug and kiss and said that she had to go but she would keep in touch and that no matter what I was so important to her. She is sorry for everything and that she loves me. She got in the car and I could not fight the tears back. She said "Mommy please don't cry, I am okay, I am doing good, please, you are going to make me cry, I love you". She promised she would call me, she blew me a kiss and drove off.
It was so bitter sweet. In a weird way I am so PROUD of her. Even though she is technically on the run, she is actually making a life for herself. I am so sad today, I miss her. I haven't seen that little girl in a very long time. It was her, the real Brandie, the one I gave birth to, the one with that sweet heart, bright smile and big beautiful eyes. I can't stop crying now. It is a different cry though. It is a happy/sad cry! I am overwhelmed by how mature she seemed. How together she was. I so was not expecting that.
Now, I want to call the DA and drop all charges. I do not want her to go back to jail. I mean this is not the life I would have chosen for her but she could be doing so much worse. In fact, I expected her to be much worse off. She has a JOB and pays rent!!! I must be dreaming!!! I don't want her to get caught now. I almost want to help her stay away. I won't, but I truly want to. At this point I really doubt the DA would be willing to drop the charges as he has given her two chances and she messed them both up. This is her second bench warrant, second time she skipped out on court, so I think it is a done deal. What do you guys think? Should I try to drop the charges? I just think she is doing well and going back to jail would only set her back, she will only regress in jail and I really am so proud of her. Is that strange? What do I do? Do you think that the DA would even be willing to just let this go? She doesn't have a criminal record.
In any event, I am a proud mama today. My heart is filled with joy at this moment. Our bond is strong. We have a real connection. I felt it last night and so did she. I miss my little girl so much today. I just can't stop the tears.
Thanks for listening. And thank you all for all of your good thoughts and prayers for my baby girl. They seem to be working!
Shawna