I'd just about HAD IT with homework and difficult child 1 not doing it and lying about it, and every friggin' day being a battle to get him or difficult child 2 to pay attention, to stay in one place, to DO the work and not simply wander around the house doing other things. The kids got started late on homework (after 5pm -- after 6pm for difficult child 1 because he just didn't get started) because we had to take difficult child 1 for labwork after school and I didn't dare leave the other two home alone for that long because difficult child 2 is not completely stable right now. husband comes home about 7:30 and of course everybody wants to run and greet him. That's fine -- I'm glad they love their dad so much. I'm sitting at the table with difficult child 2 so I can guide him with his math homework when he gets stuck on a problem. easy child's already done with her homework (of course) and is in her room. difficult child 1 is in his room working (supposedly). At 8:00, difficult child 2 wants to take a break from the math and work on something else, so I'm asking him to tell me what else is due for tomorrow. He starts to tell me about something that's due another day and husband decides he's going to help him do that by looking something up on his laptop. I tell difficult child 2 not to worry about that assignment because he needs to focus on what's due TOMORROW first. husband keeps on with the laptop, but starts pulling up YouTube clips and funny commercials and is showing them to the kids. So I get up to load the dishwasher. A few more minutes goe by and he's still fooling around looking at movie clips and stuff like that. difficult child 2 is NOT working. And now difficult child 1 is joining in. And by now, a half hour has gone by and it's coming up on 8:30pm. I am TRYING to not get frustrated and start nagging. But I am so MAD because I am TIRED of being the only one who worries about the difficult child's getting their work done! So I grumbled something about them all being on their own and went upstairs to watch TV. About 5 min. later, husband comes up and is mad at me for being mad at him (of course). I'm supposed to consider how he feels -- that I rob him of time with the kids. Maybe I do. Then he insinuates that it's my fault their homework isn't done! I don't sense that he shares the concern over homework, yet I am expected to ensure they do it. I am tired of feeling like the sole person carrying the burden of difficult child problems. I'm sure all you single parents can relate. Some days I FEEL like I am the only one parenting in this house. I told husband maybe I should just go back to work because then I wouldn't have time to worry about the fact that difficult child 1 is failing so many classes. easy child heard this and started to cry because we were arguing and because she doesn't want me to work because she's afraid she won't see me. So now I'm feeling guilty for scaring her AND angry at not feeling supported AND frustrated with the whole situation. And so I can feel even more lousy, difficult child 1 brings home an A on his Algebra test, which I am REALLY happy about, but I find I can't feel happy for long because he is still dropping the ball big time in so many other areas! I am SO glad he's getting tested soon. I think I really need to detach here from the school drama because it's driving me nuts worrying about it all the time. As for the want ads -- really not much in there... and I'd have to either work during school hours or nights. husband's life would become a LOT more stressful if I went back to work. And so would everyone else's. Okay, vent is finished for now.