I'm trying to complain less lately, it's working out fairly well lol.
I have my little ppl icon's so life is good in that regard!!!
Yet, difficult child sometimes wow! Some days I sit back and think for a second my entire life revolves around her. Everyday, every night her.
Now, I know being a parent is a selfless act. I'm surviving easy child so i totally get it! Yet different children bigtime, difficult child is incredibly needy. It gets to me at times it really does. If I go to use the bathroom and I"m gone too long she comes searching for me knocking on door profusely. If I try to go outside to get mail she's banging on living room windows and screaming I love you even though I told her "i am just going to get the mail"!! She smother's me at times, I love her so yet i can't breath sometimes.
Like Saturdays for instance she awakens early is usually pretty hyped up, arguing with easy child before i even open my eyes (usually very much caused by difficult child), usually feverishly working on something today it was her baby that wets. She was yelling at easy child to get out of the bathroom cause she wanted to fill it up! Then if i deviate my attention let's say to be online for even fifteen minutes she keeps calling my name mind you i'm sitting right next to her while she's loading kitten and her baby in stroller. Ma look at this, Ma look at that!
Then long and behold once I get a plan for the day it could be food shopping, movies whatever she stalls. It takes over an hour of continuously asking her to get dressed, let's go, etc. all she wants to do is sit in house all day. She has huge issues with leaving for anything.
Now, granted she is sleeping at night and i'm so wrong for complaining right now. Yet it helps when i vent it out and than i can proceed calmer.
Don't you guys ever feel that way? Like wow give me a minute to breath to think to pee??? She is so so needy and i'm trying to break her of that somewhat because she's going to be ten in feb. and i can't always be her security blanket. I'm desperately trying to teach her that i love her, am giong nowhere, and that she is smart and capable and is doing fine.
Last night I tried to go online for a few minutes hadn't been on all day. She kept staring at me i felt so guilty after a few posts I got off. Than guess what she (inbetween all the shows we watch, which by the way i'm also sick of, how many times can you watch the same Hannah Montana re-run seriously), than she requests my labtop and goes on her webiste, ok fine. Yet here I am watching Hannah Montana yet again she's hardly watching yet throws fit if i try to change it to something other than her and i'm just sitting there thinking ok when is bedtime??
I feel so guilty for that. I am lucky in a sense I get a break every other weekend at least for a day. Time with Dads been cut down because she was melting down over going for two days suddenly. So, now I get pretty much a day a whole 24 hours of reprieve. Yet I don't know how well i'd handle it without those 48 hours once a mos.!
ok i'm done b*tching! Sorry i just had to say how i felt. thanks for listening
I have my little ppl icon's so life is good in that regard!!!
Yet, difficult child sometimes wow! Some days I sit back and think for a second my entire life revolves around her. Everyday, every night her.
Now, I know being a parent is a selfless act. I'm surviving easy child so i totally get it! Yet different children bigtime, difficult child is incredibly needy. It gets to me at times it really does. If I go to use the bathroom and I"m gone too long she comes searching for me knocking on door profusely. If I try to go outside to get mail she's banging on living room windows and screaming I love you even though I told her "i am just going to get the mail"!! She smother's me at times, I love her so yet i can't breath sometimes.
Like Saturdays for instance she awakens early is usually pretty hyped up, arguing with easy child before i even open my eyes (usually very much caused by difficult child), usually feverishly working on something today it was her baby that wets. She was yelling at easy child to get out of the bathroom cause she wanted to fill it up! Then if i deviate my attention let's say to be online for even fifteen minutes she keeps calling my name mind you i'm sitting right next to her while she's loading kitten and her baby in stroller. Ma look at this, Ma look at that!
Then long and behold once I get a plan for the day it could be food shopping, movies whatever she stalls. It takes over an hour of continuously asking her to get dressed, let's go, etc. all she wants to do is sit in house all day. She has huge issues with leaving for anything.
Now, granted she is sleeping at night and i'm so wrong for complaining right now. Yet it helps when i vent it out and than i can proceed calmer.
Don't you guys ever feel that way? Like wow give me a minute to breath to think to pee??? She is so so needy and i'm trying to break her of that somewhat because she's going to be ten in feb. and i can't always be her security blanket. I'm desperately trying to teach her that i love her, am giong nowhere, and that she is smart and capable and is doing fine.
Last night I tried to go online for a few minutes hadn't been on all day. She kept staring at me i felt so guilty after a few posts I got off. Than guess what she (inbetween all the shows we watch, which by the way i'm also sick of, how many times can you watch the same Hannah Montana re-run seriously), than she requests my labtop and goes on her webiste, ok fine. Yet here I am watching Hannah Montana yet again she's hardly watching yet throws fit if i try to change it to something other than her and i'm just sitting there thinking ok when is bedtime??
I feel so guilty for that. I am lucky in a sense I get a break every other weekend at least for a day. Time with Dads been cut down because she was melting down over going for two days suddenly. So, now I get pretty much a day a whole 24 hours of reprieve. Yet I don't know how well i'd handle it without those 48 hours once a mos.!
ok i'm done b*tching! Sorry i just had to say how i felt. thanks for listening