(I STILL haven't gotten MY card....
) hehe.
You know......(thinking insert) ...exhale....
YOU re-read your stuff and you think "Oh, i must come off as crazy, a lunatic...did you know that the word lunatic has to do with the phases of the moon - luna....have no idea where the tic came in unless it has to do with actual tics that only are present during moon phases....then you put them together moon-tics.....lol...moon tics....sounds like a new bug. "My dog didn't have regular tics...he had those night-time critters....moon-tics." Anyway.
When I re-read what you write, I see compassion, explanation, education, a willingness to share, keen insight, a want for understanding. I don't see a nut or a crazy woman or even a night time dog biting critter (moon-tic). I just see a friend, who actually took the time to explain to me something that I wanted to know about and was kind enough not to say (#($)(((((( off Star - too personal) or MYOB - it's just a thing, or "Go look up on the internet."
See years ago I had or thought I had Bulemia. I was newley married, and my x was unforgiving of the slightest weight gain. I was also forced to eat meat and couldn't stand the beatings if I didn't. So I did what he wanted, then purged. Then for comfort I'd eat sugary stuff. It just became a habit over a period of years. I had done it for quite a long time and had scaring, stomach problems and while I kept my weight down - it didn't keep me as his one and only. It was an exercise in futility. The reason I stopped eventually was due to pictures of what your insides looked like, the fact that I had a child and someone needed to be around for him. So THAT mental aspect I get. I also went through intense therapy for years to recover from his abuse. Not to mention my own.
So when you lump yourself into "I'm a lunatic, I'm crazy, I wrote this and you must all think I'm nuts?" Nah...(chuckle) You read the stuff I write. Do you think I'm....(wait.....never.....mind) .....Gonna rephrase that....gimme a minute. I write things that I'm sure aren't the norm.
But I write them sometimes to share with people here because I feel safe in getting them out, and down on cyber-paper, and when I share? It leaves what I share open for interpretation of all kinds. Some are sympathetic, some are spanking, some are OH ARE YOU KIDDING? ---but all ARE responsive aren't they? So THAT in itself means - you read it, you cared enough to respond.
You cared.....about...the person that wrote. If you wrote something I don't agree with...okay. I put it out there. But I gave it a try.
A lot of times you can come here and put your thoughts down, and get a plethora of ideas from all the friends you have the "know" you, and read your words and feel what you are saying and 10 people can interpret it 10 different ways....but you may click with one person....and just that one click lets you know you aren't alone. Sometimes that is all it takes in a day to make you feel just () much better about yourself, or to let you know someone shares about THEIR experiences like TM sharing about her Mom...WOW...now you know....you are not alone and someone KNOWS first hand how that feels to watch and knows what it must feel like from a daughter's perspective....so YOU gain insight. VERY COOL...sharing. The beauty in it all ....is that we open up....share....and we're here.
For each other. Hug or spank.....It's for each other.
And you are one of us. And I'm so very glad.
Cause you're just cool.
Even if -----my card is sooooooooooo late. UGH.
(Look look TM, gcv, KT & Linda got THEIR card....whoopie....) does swirley finger....pft....hahaha.
When I get it ---YOU WILL KNOW!!! (probably hear me)
Love ya -