Mattsmom277
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Thank you Nancy. You know, it doesn't feel strong, or courageous. i just simply can't picture doing nothing knowing hes prowling. Grooming some new girl as I type right now.
I see my easy child developing into a young woman and picture what if it was HER being groomed for his plans? It makes me determined to not ever let this drop. Eventually something is going to happen.
I forgot to mention, the prosecutors office has my info and we've talked numerous times. If EVER another person comes forward with allegations, even if the aunts etc can't bring themselves to come forward, they prosecutor will use my case and the new case to bring him down. I hope it doesn't come to that, it would mean another persons name on "the list". But if it DOES happen, we'll get the monster.
It may not happen in the quick time frame I'd like (as in yesterday) but you know something, I have a piece inside of me at peace in the midst of this chaos, that says we're on the right path and sometime not too far down the line, I'm going to see justice done and get to watch him taken away in cuffs and shackles. I dont' know why I feel it. But it is just a very deep feeling, like knowledge almost, that his reign of pain and terror and destruction is nearly over.
I had a breast reduction 12 years ago. I couldn't keep them. They reminded me. I looked yesterday at my scars in my mirror after my shower and I told myself, those scars are not for nothing Melissa. They will lead to the end of this madness. I plan to look at them if there are times I feel unable to keep going forward in pursuit of getting him whichever way the law can. They will be my strength to keep going. That kind of life impact deserves a fighter behind it to get him. He must feel smug after all these years without being called to task. I wish I could photo the moment he is finally picked up by police and he realizes the gig is up. I truly believe that days is coming. Maybe in Gods time, not my time, but I do believe with this many people wanting this to end, that the day is coming.
Thank you all so much for giving me a place to talk about this and your kind words. I do talk when I need to with my fiance who is wonderful and will hold my hand and offer strength through all of this. Including helping parent my sister if she ever ends up here with us. But aside from that, I truly have nowhere to let out my feelings on this. I'm considering starting a journal or a file on the computer to document my feelings, events as they happen. Maybe a mini story of my experience. Just some sort of outlet. But for now, its my fiance, and today, here with all of you wonderfully supportive people. You have no idea how much it means today, when I've been struggling emotionally with this, to have you all to bounce this all off of. Sometimes people NEVER know the impact they have on other people. I think today this might apply to all of you. ((hugs)) and gratitude beyond belief
I see my easy child developing into a young woman and picture what if it was HER being groomed for his plans? It makes me determined to not ever let this drop. Eventually something is going to happen.
I forgot to mention, the prosecutors office has my info and we've talked numerous times. If EVER another person comes forward with allegations, even if the aunts etc can't bring themselves to come forward, they prosecutor will use my case and the new case to bring him down. I hope it doesn't come to that, it would mean another persons name on "the list". But if it DOES happen, we'll get the monster.
It may not happen in the quick time frame I'd like (as in yesterday) but you know something, I have a piece inside of me at peace in the midst of this chaos, that says we're on the right path and sometime not too far down the line, I'm going to see justice done and get to watch him taken away in cuffs and shackles. I dont' know why I feel it. But it is just a very deep feeling, like knowledge almost, that his reign of pain and terror and destruction is nearly over.
I had a breast reduction 12 years ago. I couldn't keep them. They reminded me. I looked yesterday at my scars in my mirror after my shower and I told myself, those scars are not for nothing Melissa. They will lead to the end of this madness. I plan to look at them if there are times I feel unable to keep going forward in pursuit of getting him whichever way the law can. They will be my strength to keep going. That kind of life impact deserves a fighter behind it to get him. He must feel smug after all these years without being called to task. I wish I could photo the moment he is finally picked up by police and he realizes the gig is up. I truly believe that days is coming. Maybe in Gods time, not my time, but I do believe with this many people wanting this to end, that the day is coming.
Thank you all so much for giving me a place to talk about this and your kind words. I do talk when I need to with my fiance who is wonderful and will hold my hand and offer strength through all of this. Including helping parent my sister if she ever ends up here with us. But aside from that, I truly have nowhere to let out my feelings on this. I'm considering starting a journal or a file on the computer to document my feelings, events as they happen. Maybe a mini story of my experience. Just some sort of outlet. But for now, its my fiance, and today, here with all of you wonderfully supportive people. You have no idea how much it means today, when I've been struggling emotionally with this, to have you all to bounce this all off of. Sometimes people NEVER know the impact they have on other people. I think today this might apply to all of you. ((hugs)) and gratitude beyond belief