The baby didn't sleep again last night. I've been up since 11pm -- got about an hour of restless sleep. So my fuse was short to begin with. difficult child got up on the WRONG side of the bed this morning -- as is most days. She woke up crying and whining right of the bat. We ignored her until she cooled off. Her main problem was that the baby got up before her, and she wanted to wake her up, I found out later. So she cried and was completely defiant the entire morning -- she wanted us to carry her around and we both refused because we had to get ready for work and she started screaming and kicking and hitting me. The whole morning was a fight. She had a major temper tantrum because I packed the lunches without her help (I asked her twice, she said no twice) then she refused to go to the bathroom, brush her teeth, or put her shoes on (or let me help her do it). Finally, I got fed up. We were late (again) and I just picked her up and put her in the car, without shoes, without brushing teeeth, etc. She really freaked, then. By this time the baby was screaming completely. I lost it. I took her out of the car, swatted her behind, then put her in the living room. I told her that I was going to take the baby to school and I was going to work and she could just stay home by herself. I told her that I didn't like her anymore and that's how I felt. I told her that I don't like it when she hits, hitting hurts and it is mean, and that I didn't want to be with her when she acts like that. I know I shouldn't have said it, but I just lost it completely. I went out and started the car and opened the garage door. Of course, she had a complete breakdown, finally brushed her teeth and got in the car. Cried the whole way to school and had a tantrum as I tried to leave there.