How many of you feel terrible leading up to Mothers Day? I am dreading the onslaught of social media posts about wonderful children.... And amazing moms. I feel like I didn't get it right already, but Mother's Day just makes it more painful even. It isn't going terrible, but when I tried to talk to oldest son tonight about his job search you would have thought I was a horrible person. I haven't asked in at least a week, and all I see is him sleeping all day most days. He says he plans on getting a job and moving out. Maybe he will. I hope he will. It's the disdain he talks to me with, like I'm such a terrible mother. There is no thought to the day tomorrow. I will not get a card, or any other acknowledgment. I guess I wouldn't care so much if I didn't feel so hurt about how much he hates talking to me... It's like I'm a leper. I am up in my room just crying for the lost relationship. I never knew how hurt I could feel until the past few years. Just needed to put it out there.