AFter losing my mother in April, things have been so hectic I never had a chance to sit and think of her and miss her. I am the baby of 6 much older siblings. My mom didn't have a voice the past 4 or 5 years. After my dad died she suffered a stroke that took that away from her. But still her eyes could talk for her. I miss her SO much. difficult child didn't really know her, and easy child has grown away from her also. husband pretends nothing has changed, and I am so sad inside. The funeral home did a video presentation of 50 pictures. Very nicely put together. We brought in pictures and they put this awesome slide show together. Started off with HER baby picture, her coming home with first born, her and each one of us kids, then her with each one of the grand kids. Really awesome, and so many many memories. A copy was made for each of us kids, but I haven't received it yet. Then..My sister in law did an interview with her over ten years ago. Saved it. She had it transfered to a CD and both of those were mailed out to us Friday. My sister sent an email saying how awesome that interview was and how wonderful it was to hear her voice. difficult child is excited and waiting to get it. He rememberes very few words from her. I am scared to get it. I think I will just fall apart. I miss her so much. I am going to get copies of both the slide show and the interview made for each one of my boys. Maybe two. They can share their grandmother with their kids someday. I am really afraid to get this. Is that crazy or what. I should be excited to hear her voice. But I am scared. Why?