I have finished my neuropsychologist testing and just have to wait for the result appointment. I am a bit perplexed however, about the way that this neuropsychologist reacted, or maybe I should say treated, me after we were done with the testing and I asked for the names of the tests that had been administered. Actually over the days that I was being tested I had asked about the tests or made comments about the tests...things such as "Oh I have heard of the MMPI recently on a message board I post on." or after doing a computerized test for what I assumed to be attention issues...I asked if it was the computerized test that they used for ADD because I had heard of that test being used with kids. Oh and there was one test she used that was a much harder and longer version on paper of that colored block test that is out on the internet where you have to match the color of the word that is written in one color ink (say red) but it spells blue. I told her I had done that test online and it was hard. She got kind of irritated with me and asked me how I knew so much about the tests. I told her for one thing I had been dealing with mental health and psychology with my kids for nearly half my life plus I read a great deal about these subjects. So then after all the testing was done I asked about getting a list of all the tests...she tells me that there will be a list along with the scoring on the final report but that neuropsychs dont like to give these test names out because they like to keep them secret so people cant just go and learn about the tests. Ok????? What does it matter after I take the test? I am wanting to find out what the tests test! Then she really ticked me off....she said she really felt she might not ought to give me a report with all the details because I would just use that report to nit pick the report to death and come up with all kinds of awful things. She thinks that I will just use it to make myself feel worse. Uhhhh no...that isnt me. I do want everything I can get because knowing things gives me a better handle on where I am and what I can do but I use that knowledge as a platform. This woman doesnt really know me from Adam's house cat. She doesnt believe I have borderline PD at all. Trust me if I say I do. I may not have all the symptoms at this time but I have enough of them...and I had many more when I was younger. Heck...I dont have ALL the symptoms of bipolar on any given day of the week! If she had just met me when I was fully medicated she probably wouldnt have given me any diagnosis...but she saw my medication profile and it scared the bejeebers out of her. She had never seen anyone on such high dosages of medications as I was on while in rehab and they hadnt even actually increased me to my full pre-hospital admit levels...lol. I just find this whole thing kind of wacky. Why be so secretive? Why act like I am some loony person who cant be trusted with information about my own health care? She even said I shouldnt be given my own forms with my AXIS lists on them! If I wasnt given that info, I wouldnt be working with that agency. Noone better try to keep me out of my treatment team. It just doesnt happen. In fact, that is one of the most important key things to know about me IN my Person Centered Plan...lol. Right in the Support section of my PCP it is written: Janet likes to know all the facts about her treatment and will research medications and treatments to help herself and others stay informed about new and effective treatments to help meet her needs. It is important to Janet that she is fully included in treatment planning and informed by all professionals. (she likes to have all the facts) This neuropsychologist committed the cardinal sin of talking down to me. I would never go back to her again even if I felt I needed more testing.