Copabanana
Well-Known Member
I know that much of the worry I feel is ABOUT ME: My vulnerability, the fear that I expose too much, what I call "blood in the water," the fear I will be rejected. I also have a newly gained fear of "bad people." Odd, because, historically, I have been the one to leave me front door open or unlocked, even through the night. But my fear of "bad people" is not of the criminal....I fear those who without caring use or misuse one's heartfelt words....to their own ends, for money, to make a point, or people who judge without feeling the need to understand. I fear the loss of control of my words...and the inability to protect myself, from interpretation or misinterpretation or misuse. Kind of like it was one I was a child. Feeling helpless to protect myself, with no one to protect me.
As I write this I recognize that sharing here is a way to learn that I can be conscious about what I reveal, and build in protections. This is what a responsible adult does. They open up...but they don't spill their guts. They share, but they don't give away they store. And if somebody misuses them, abuses them...they don't feel it to be a sign that they are worthless or bad....they do not feel shame....and guilt. Instead they say....copulate yourself voyeur!!!!
As I write this I recognize that sharing here is a way to learn that I can be conscious about what I reveal, and build in protections. This is what a responsible adult does. They open up...but they don't spill their guts. They share, but they don't give away they store. And if somebody misuses them, abuses them...they don't feel it to be a sign that they are worthless or bad....they do not feel shame....and guilt. Instead they say....copulate yourself voyeur!!!!