Oh I so totally understand that- the miracle of birth is huge and the miracle of a "simple" pregnancy...with difficult child I had to have daily blood draws thru the entire preg after fertility treatment.....with son, I had to have daily shots thru preg, and sprained my back mid 2nd trimester....he was a preemie and his labor was hard.
I had so hoped she would not have to have this kind of heartbreak, you are right, I would go thru it myself for her if I could.....she is my child and I love her and I HATE her haveing to have this......
I never worked for an ob gyne, I worked Hospice and Alzheimers.....but I am gonna allow all of us to grieve.....and hopefully she can get her health back soon and move forward...with just a lil more life experience under her belt.
I think I read that 65% of pregs end in miscarriage? and I know from school that it really is a miracle even for an egg to get fertilized.........many miscarry without even knowing they are-were preg.......and I also know that many miscarraiges occur becuz something was wrong.......her ultrasound 2 weeks ago was good...but......something must have happened since then....
so for now - for a short while, we will grieve for what might have been.....and we will cherish and treasure the gift of life and appreciate the frailty of life. any life, all life.
I doubt there is gonna be a blessed rainbow tonite, after all, it is now full dark, the t storrms continue and now we have tornado warnings and watches all over.
While the family here are all normally nite owls, everyone is all tucked in bed already for the nite. Every one of us......Between the storms, heat, and the sadness.....I guess we all seek the comfort and healing power of sleep tonite. sweet dreams.
thank you for your kind words and for permitting me to chat.
I had been afraid difficult child would take it very hard..but I think for now she is still stunned. husband surprised me- he is VERY angry at the moment. (at doctor) I hope while he sleeps he calms some.
I am some sad, some tired, and still worry lingers. I will be keeping an eye on easy child.
(for weeks- months......)