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bran155
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Where do I begin??? I was waiting for my SW to come and the door bell rang. I thought it was her early but when I answered the door my heart sank and I just fell to the floor in tears. It was my daughter's friend V (the one who called the other night) her sister and their mother! I knew what they were here for and I was terrified of what they were going to tell me. They are really nice people and have always cared about my daughter. For their mother to come with them, I knew this was serious. I was shaking. I'll give you the short version. I'll try anyway.
Turns out that V is not Shelly. I believe Shelly is a fellow prostitute and was just afraid of the consequences of calling me so she used that relay system. You might remember her telling my sister in one of her phone calls that my daughter was hurt and brought to the hospital. True. She was RAPED!!!! V's sister told me that by accident. I was telling them about the phone calls my sister was getting from this Shelly person and when I told them about her being hurt and brought to the hospital V's sister, M blurted out "Oh, yeah that's when she was raped". I screamed and went into hysterics. M felt horrible for saying that. She began to cry and just held me. At this point we were all crying.
A friend of theirs who knows my daughter and who knows that my daughter is good friends with this family called V to warn her that my daughter was out on the streets. He asked her not to say who told her as he is friends with my daughter's pimp. V, M and their older sister immediately went to where this guy said that my daughter was and sure enough, she was out there high as hell on Angel Dust in her hooker outfit standing on the corner acting a fool!!!! They have her on video. V took the video with her cell phone to show me. But I refused to watch it. I just couldn't. I don't ever want to see that. I will never be able to get that horrible image out of my head!!! It would kill me to actually see my baby girl like that!!! They picked her up, along with another prostitute (according to V my daughter can only leave the block with this other girl as per their pimp) they were trying to talk sense into my daughter, begging her to come home and do the right thing. She, of course refused. That night V called my sister again and told her that they went to see my daughter, told her about the video and I'm sure some other stuff that I don't know about. My sister (bless her heart) told V not to, under any circumstances, call me personally. She told V to only contact her so that she can decide what I should know as I am having a very hard time with all of this. My sister is a gift to me, she is my rock!!! So my sister basically knew all of this the night before they came to my house.
The mother, so sweet and so concerned called her ex-husband who is a cop and told him what was going on. She took my daughter's warrant, gave him the warrant number. They planned to go last night to grab my daughter and drag her to his police station where all of the cops were already prepared for her arrival and she would be arrested. The plan was for V, M and their older sister to go pick up my daughter and act like they were going to hang out. The mother would be in her car behind them. Once my daughter got in the car then the mother would jump in and hold my daughter as they drove to the police station. I still can't believe that these people are willing to do this for my baby. I just kept thanking them and hugging them. The mother said "Don't you worry I will get your baby off the streets". I am so incredibly grateful to them. I was afraid for their safety but V assured me that she knows these people and that they wouldn't dare mess with her or her family.
The next day and I still haven't heard from them. It was raining here last night so I don't know if they went looking for her. I have no doubt that they will go tonight and every night until they get her. I paced the floors last night for hours. My husband kept trying to get me to calm down but I just could not sit still. I even took one of my daughter's old Haldol pills to see if it would take the edge off. Did nothing at all for me!!! After a few hours I finally went to sleep. It had to be after 3 am. I am used to that though as I never sleep!!!
I couldn't even begin to describe how this feels. Half of the time I feel completely numb and zombied out, the other half I am in hysterics. I am sad and have a horrible feeling of doom in my gut. My body is shaky and I feel sick. Even though this is something I saw coming I am still in shock!!! I feel as though I am talking about someone elses life. It is just so surreal. I cannot believe this is happening. My daughter does not belong out there by any stretch of the imagination!!! Our life was not supposed to be this way!!! She is loved, she has a wonderful family and we have all been here for her every step of the way. This just doesn't make any sense. I know that she is ill and that this is part of her illness, it's just so hard to wrap my brain around all of this. My sw says that I must stop trying to make sense of this as I am never going to find the answers I am looking for. And I logically know that but from an emotional standpoint I just can't help ask, scream, shout, yell, cry, houl: WHY?????
I am so afraid that if and when my daughter does crave stability she is going to now have so much more to deal with. Can she overcome being raped as well as prostituting herself? That seems like so much for a person with her issues. It is so incerdibly hard for a stable person to overcome these things. It will be so much harder for my daughter!!! I feel like she has damaged her soul so badly. How will she ever live with this down the line??? Ugh!!!! I just hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for listening.
Shawna
Turns out that V is not Shelly. I believe Shelly is a fellow prostitute and was just afraid of the consequences of calling me so she used that relay system. You might remember her telling my sister in one of her phone calls that my daughter was hurt and brought to the hospital. True. She was RAPED!!!! V's sister told me that by accident. I was telling them about the phone calls my sister was getting from this Shelly person and when I told them about her being hurt and brought to the hospital V's sister, M blurted out "Oh, yeah that's when she was raped". I screamed and went into hysterics. M felt horrible for saying that. She began to cry and just held me. At this point we were all crying.
A friend of theirs who knows my daughter and who knows that my daughter is good friends with this family called V to warn her that my daughter was out on the streets. He asked her not to say who told her as he is friends with my daughter's pimp. V, M and their older sister immediately went to where this guy said that my daughter was and sure enough, she was out there high as hell on Angel Dust in her hooker outfit standing on the corner acting a fool!!!! They have her on video. V took the video with her cell phone to show me. But I refused to watch it. I just couldn't. I don't ever want to see that. I will never be able to get that horrible image out of my head!!! It would kill me to actually see my baby girl like that!!! They picked her up, along with another prostitute (according to V my daughter can only leave the block with this other girl as per their pimp) they were trying to talk sense into my daughter, begging her to come home and do the right thing. She, of course refused. That night V called my sister again and told her that they went to see my daughter, told her about the video and I'm sure some other stuff that I don't know about. My sister (bless her heart) told V not to, under any circumstances, call me personally. She told V to only contact her so that she can decide what I should know as I am having a very hard time with all of this. My sister is a gift to me, she is my rock!!! So my sister basically knew all of this the night before they came to my house.
The mother, so sweet and so concerned called her ex-husband who is a cop and told him what was going on. She took my daughter's warrant, gave him the warrant number. They planned to go last night to grab my daughter and drag her to his police station where all of the cops were already prepared for her arrival and she would be arrested. The plan was for V, M and their older sister to go pick up my daughter and act like they were going to hang out. The mother would be in her car behind them. Once my daughter got in the car then the mother would jump in and hold my daughter as they drove to the police station. I still can't believe that these people are willing to do this for my baby. I just kept thanking them and hugging them. The mother said "Don't you worry I will get your baby off the streets". I am so incredibly grateful to them. I was afraid for their safety but V assured me that she knows these people and that they wouldn't dare mess with her or her family.
The next day and I still haven't heard from them. It was raining here last night so I don't know if they went looking for her. I have no doubt that they will go tonight and every night until they get her. I paced the floors last night for hours. My husband kept trying to get me to calm down but I just could not sit still. I even took one of my daughter's old Haldol pills to see if it would take the edge off. Did nothing at all for me!!! After a few hours I finally went to sleep. It had to be after 3 am. I am used to that though as I never sleep!!!
I couldn't even begin to describe how this feels. Half of the time I feel completely numb and zombied out, the other half I am in hysterics. I am sad and have a horrible feeling of doom in my gut. My body is shaky and I feel sick. Even though this is something I saw coming I am still in shock!!! I feel as though I am talking about someone elses life. It is just so surreal. I cannot believe this is happening. My daughter does not belong out there by any stretch of the imagination!!! Our life was not supposed to be this way!!! She is loved, she has a wonderful family and we have all been here for her every step of the way. This just doesn't make any sense. I know that she is ill and that this is part of her illness, it's just so hard to wrap my brain around all of this. My sw says that I must stop trying to make sense of this as I am never going to find the answers I am looking for. And I logically know that but from an emotional standpoint I just can't help ask, scream, shout, yell, cry, houl: WHY?????
I am so afraid that if and when my daughter does crave stability she is going to now have so much more to deal with. Can she overcome being raped as well as prostituting herself? That seems like so much for a person with her issues. It is so incerdibly hard for a stable person to overcome these things. It will be so much harder for my daughter!!! I feel like she has damaged her soul so badly. How will she ever live with this down the line??? Ugh!!!! I just hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for listening.
Shawna
