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toughlovin
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and I am getting mad. What an inconsiderate brat!! Really I am angry at this point..... because he walked out of the program AMA an totally his own unilateral decision we don't get a penny back... and we had just paid for the month. Made me really see that we really cant pay for any more treatment because he is not the one taking any risk... when it gets too hard he walks!!!! Grrrrrr.
And honestly couldn't he follow through and at least show us the consideration to call us just because.... maybe just to let us know that yes he is ok????? The last I heard he is ok... or at least alive because his therapist from the program had heard that from the mother of the girl he is with.... I have stayed out of contacting the other mother for a variety of reasons but I may try to get her number just for my own peace of mind.
As much as I want to hear that he is ok, i also dread that phone call because I am sure he will only call us when he is in real trouble or need..... and then I will be faced with having to tell him he has to save himself, that I cant help him. I know that will be really hard. And i suspect we might get those threats of suicide and I don't want to deal with that. Ick.
The police came to the door the other night looking for him since there is a warrant out for his arrest. So if he shows up in this state he will go to jail for violation of probation. That might be the best thing that could happen.
I am actually doing mostly ok... as long as I don't think too much. I have to really push myself not to go down the coulda shoulda road. It is pointless and just gets me depressed. I am sleeping ok but tend to wake up early and can't get back to sleep.
I can't beleive that after all we have tried to help him we are still sitting in this place. The good thing is it is very clear we cant do any more... we have done it all. And I think he may know that...but may not too.
TL
And honestly couldn't he follow through and at least show us the consideration to call us just because.... maybe just to let us know that yes he is ok????? The last I heard he is ok... or at least alive because his therapist from the program had heard that from the mother of the girl he is with.... I have stayed out of contacting the other mother for a variety of reasons but I may try to get her number just for my own peace of mind.
As much as I want to hear that he is ok, i also dread that phone call because I am sure he will only call us when he is in real trouble or need..... and then I will be faced with having to tell him he has to save himself, that I cant help him. I know that will be really hard. And i suspect we might get those threats of suicide and I don't want to deal with that. Ick.
The police came to the door the other night looking for him since there is a warrant out for his arrest. So if he shows up in this state he will go to jail for violation of probation. That might be the best thing that could happen.
I am actually doing mostly ok... as long as I don't think too much. I have to really push myself not to go down the coulda shoulda road. It is pointless and just gets me depressed. I am sleeping ok but tend to wake up early and can't get back to sleep.
I can't beleive that after all we have tried to help him we are still sitting in this place. The good thing is it is very clear we cant do any more... we have done it all. And I think he may know that...but may not too.
TL