Steely
Active Member
So, I am going to Philly for a week. Yeh. Not my idea of fun, really. Well Philly is, but not a corporate shin dig. We are supposed to dress "professional" and do things like go to cocktail parties. Seriously? I am so not that person. Oh well. I think I have found the attire necessary to participate in the functions - which is evidently the most important part? What about my brain? OK. Let's not get started on how I could lead the world in blue jeans.
So these 2 guys (G the 29yo and R the 44yo) that have been playing hard ball with me, and keeping me at a distance, yet wanting more - have suddenly expressed a desire to possibly have more. Both of them within 24 hours. I am stupefied. Here I have been in my happy cocoon of either or - whenever the mood hits - I will chose who I want to hang with. And now they both are increasing their intensity. I have never been in this type of situation, it feels a bit out there for me. I am not sure what to think. My conclusion is that one or both of them will move on and I really should just savor the moment.
I know that is all shallow - but I have to say that I personally feel victorious that I got through a thanksgiving without crying - so I had to share. It was my second I have spent away from Matt, and my first that I spent without talking to him. To get through it without breaking, was good. Instead I spent it eating breakfast at Denny's with G, and with R, who made me Thanksgiving dinner. At this point, I will take whatever it is that distracts me.
Hugs to you all. And wish me luck with the corporate goons.
So these 2 guys (G the 29yo and R the 44yo) that have been playing hard ball with me, and keeping me at a distance, yet wanting more - have suddenly expressed a desire to possibly have more. Both of them within 24 hours. I am stupefied. Here I have been in my happy cocoon of either or - whenever the mood hits - I will chose who I want to hang with. And now they both are increasing their intensity. I have never been in this type of situation, it feels a bit out there for me. I am not sure what to think. My conclusion is that one or both of them will move on and I really should just savor the moment.
I know that is all shallow - but I have to say that I personally feel victorious that I got through a thanksgiving without crying - so I had to share. It was my second I have spent away from Matt, and my first that I spent without talking to him. To get through it without breaking, was good. Instead I spent it eating breakfast at Denny's with G, and with R, who made me Thanksgiving dinner. At this point, I will take whatever it is that distracts me.
Hugs to you all. And wish me luck with the corporate goons.