DammitJanet
Well-Known Member
I have seen this stuff first hand many times. Im sorry you are going through this.
Honestly this is why I have really curbed my computer and internet usage now. When I first got my computer I was pretty much addicted to the thing. I spent ungodly hours on it. I was especially drawn to chatrooms and sites that had to do with sex and naughty play. But they chatrooms didnt have to be about sex for people to get caught up in overly emotional ties either. I have seen it too many times. Tony and I got the giggles and had some fun making up a fake person and going into a sex room and pretending to be someone fabulous and getting hit on. It was all fantasy. I couldnt stop there though. I had a problem. I am bipolar. I take things too far, too fast. Im the one who kept going looking, found people who would play with me. Who would do sex chats. I could be anyone. It was great! Here I was this fat, middle aged mom, working my butt off dealing with difficult child's, but people would think I was some hot young sex southern gal. I even did the phone stuff. People tell me I have an amazing phone sex voice...lmao.
I really hurt Tony. Im not gonna go into all the details but lets just say that I had a major manic episode that led to me almost losing my family. Actually a couple. I was hurt, he was hurt. I will never do that again. I dont look for that kind of excitement or attention from a screen anymore. I learned I am more than that. I can have friends who can like me for who I am that dont need me to show them sex or talk to them about sex. Like here. Here I am safe. Thats probably why I dont leave this site.
I dont know what your husband is doing or not doing but it is horrible to do that to someone. It breaks all trust. When you get caught...and you will...it is so hard to get that trust back. Tony wanted to bust my computer to smithereens. Thankfully he didnt. He gave me a chance to prove I could learn from my mistakes. I did. We grew from it. We are almost 28 years in...will be in July. Nothing on this computer is worth that.
Honestly this is why I have really curbed my computer and internet usage now. When I first got my computer I was pretty much addicted to the thing. I spent ungodly hours on it. I was especially drawn to chatrooms and sites that had to do with sex and naughty play. But they chatrooms didnt have to be about sex for people to get caught up in overly emotional ties either. I have seen it too many times. Tony and I got the giggles and had some fun making up a fake person and going into a sex room and pretending to be someone fabulous and getting hit on. It was all fantasy. I couldnt stop there though. I had a problem. I am bipolar. I take things too far, too fast. Im the one who kept going looking, found people who would play with me. Who would do sex chats. I could be anyone. It was great! Here I was this fat, middle aged mom, working my butt off dealing with difficult child's, but people would think I was some hot young sex southern gal. I even did the phone stuff. People tell me I have an amazing phone sex voice...lmao.
I really hurt Tony. Im not gonna go into all the details but lets just say that I had a major manic episode that led to me almost losing my family. Actually a couple. I was hurt, he was hurt. I will never do that again. I dont look for that kind of excitement or attention from a screen anymore. I learned I am more than that. I can have friends who can like me for who I am that dont need me to show them sex or talk to them about sex. Like here. Here I am safe. Thats probably why I dont leave this site.
I dont know what your husband is doing or not doing but it is horrible to do that to someone. It breaks all trust. When you get caught...and you will...it is so hard to get that trust back. Tony wanted to bust my computer to smithereens. Thankfully he didnt. He gave me a chance to prove I could learn from my mistakes. I did. We grew from it. We are almost 28 years in...will be in July. Nothing on this computer is worth that.