List of players: A - future sister in law T - brother in law C - difficult child-Steph's best friend K - Sister to C and easy child's good friend Even though Steph has kicked us out of her life, through the people listed above, we have a good source of information of what is happening in Steph's life. A used to be a cutter in her teen years so she and Steph talk a lot. Plus, A is only 4 years older than Steph so they can relate. Well, Steph told A that she's cutting again. A also got the feeling that Steph might be suicidal again. So, T let's his parent (My In-laws) know that this is happening. And of course, they tell T that Steph is fine and has no problems. But they did tell T that they took Stephs car away for a few days because she skipped school to get speakers put in the car. husband called Steph just to see how things were, hoping that she might confide in him... she tells him that her life is perfect. Then, we hear from easy child. See, K befriended Steph on Facebook so that she can let easy child know if there is anything that we should be concerned about. Well, K called easy child concerned because Steph's status was (cleaned up for the board) Am I really that worthless that my grandfather tells me he is disowning me and my family? Whatever. Life hoovers. Thanks God for letting me live. F this poo. I'm finished. So, I have some concerns. Does the I'm finished mean that she's going to attempt suicide again? Is her thanks for letting her live a sarcastic reference to her failed attempt? And there is no way that we can really interfere. husband doesn't have custody. Steph won't talk to us. The In-laws live in their own world. At least Steph does talk to A and A has been suggesting help. Not that Steph is listening to A about it. I'm concerned, I'm scared, I've got a sense of dread hanging over me, there is a 100 pound rock sitting in my heart. Yet, I'm able to go on. It is so out of my control so I'm letting go. Oh I'm praying a lot that nothing happens. That's about the only thing I can do. Steph wouldn't even speak to me for the 4 minute visit at Christmas - so my reaching out isn't doing any good. This roller-coaster life isn't really fun anymore. Ant starts getting his life together and Steph's falls apart. But, just as I can't do anything for Ant - it is his life and his sobriety, Steph's life is hers. And I know that I did everything I could to help her when she lived with us. I do regret that husband didn't sue his mother for custody when the kids were little. I will always wonder if things would of been different if we had gotten mother in law out of the kids lives back then. But, at the time, we did the best we could with what information/life experience that we had. So it is a small regret. Thanks for letting me share. It helps to get a little of it out.