This is a general rant and a whine so if you're not in the mood read no further! The weather here has been rotten. My electric bill for this month is nearly $400. Today is cloudy with freezing fog and more freezing rain, snow, and ice on the way. I was hoping to go to Kansas City this weekend to visit friends but that is not looking possible. I haven't been anyplace since September and I'm definitely getting cabin fever. difficult child 1 is getting married and wants me to help with the wedding; that will probably cost me over $1000 but I really don't feel that I can say no because I spent that on difficult child 2 when he got married and difficult child 1 is actually a lot more deserving than difficult child 2 was. Bride to be wants me to make the dress. Actually, I used to sew a lot; I'd see an outfit in Vogue for several thousand dollars and knock it off for only a little so I have the skills but I'm not sure I have the patience or the will. difficult child 2 has been spending our money like it's going out of style and Grandma and I are both broke. He doesn't spend it on things like fancy clothes or booze or stuff like that; it's things like his truck is broke and he needs it to go get fire wood or the baby needs diapers and they don't have enough to buy a box. He does a lot of things for me (my water froze up last week; he came right over and fixed it and saved me a several hundred dollar plumbing bill) and I don't mind helping out some, especially now that he is working but I took early social security thinking I'd use that to pay off some high interest bills and instead most of it is getting spent. My mother (age 95) is going down hill and that is another worry. He drives her crazy needing money and other things and then she calls me and drives me crazy. This morning they called me to babysit just as I got out of bed. The pickup was broken again and it needed a $300 part but he has a friend who has a junk pick up just like it so he told difficult child to come and get it and use it for parts, which is great but I really don't enjoy babysitting all that much at all, but even more in the morning before I've even had my coffee. On top of all of that, the grandkids have pinkeye and I suppose I'll have that before all is said and done. I try to look at the people in Haiti and places like that and be thankful for all of the wonderful things I have but right now I just want to crawl in a hole and pull it in over me.