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<blockquote data-quote="hearts and roses" data-source="post: 211177" data-attributes="member: 2211"><p><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'"><span style="font-size: 12px"><span style="color: navy">Yes, I do think it's a product of just too much going on all at once...and very much connected with the financial problems we're experiencing, the not knowing how much or if H will have full time work this winter. He always does and there have been a week here and there when we've worried like this, but not this bad. I think I'm feeling stressed over things that I have no control over such as easy child finding a car and being approved for the financing. I don't agree with her choice about the car, but she is 21 and it's her choice. However, I am a cosigner on her loan, which in my opinion means I should have at least a little input (something she doesn't agree with). H has been a bear lately...I mean loud and bossy and controlling and if you don't agree with him, he just gets so pissy and loud. If you ask him anything or question him about anything, instead of a normal response, his tone is harsh and his voice booms. He's obviously frustrated and angry over things also...we can't seem to come together on anything. We argue and snipe at one another and I hate it. I feel like I have in the past before H slips....and since he refuses to get any support in his recovery, I feel like he's walking a tightrope right now. Too much pressure. And then there is the puppy wreaking havoc in our home...easy child trains her when it's convenient to her. She doesn't seem to think there is anything wrong with allowing the puppy free reign in the house even if it means she may pee on my wood floors. Also, the puppy will only sleep with me. So, there she is in between H and I. I love her, I do, but I can't keep these hours I'm keeping. I go to bed around 11:30 and have to get up to take said puppy out at 5:30. Then I try and go back to snooze until 6:30 when I have to get up for work. I'm tired. I even called my DR for a B12 shot. I haven't been exercising, which I think would help me with 80% of what I'm feeling. Then, this coming Friday/Saturday my loco sister and I are driving 6 hours to my other sister's house in PA so we can meet my other sister from WV and have a family meeting about my mom and her care, etc. Nightmare. This morning H dumped an entire cupe of coffee all over the kitchen floor. He cleaned it up with paper towels. No mopping, no wiping down, nothing. It got all over the floor, table and a chair. The dogs were licking everything and everywhere. I asked him if he considered mopping the area....he said, "Well I knew it had to be done at some point" as he was walking out the door. Hello, mouse problem, remember?? A-hole. So, I cleaned it all up before I went to work. </span></span></span></p><p></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'"><span style="font-size: 12px"><span style="color: navy">Aaaaaaaaaaagggggghhhhhhhhhhh. I just want to run off to a cabin in the woods, scream my head off and then start a nice fire and have a cup of tea or something bundled under a big blanket in my favorite jammies - ALONE. A week or so ago, I thought it would be nice if H and I could run off alone for a night or weekend, if we even could afford to, but now I just want to be left alone. </span></span></span></p><p></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'"><span style="font-size: 12px"><span style="color: navy">on the other hand, I truly believe in sending out positive vibes and energy...finding the silver lining, being optimistic, and all that jazz. It's difficult, but I'm doing it. I smile at people in my building and at the stores, say good morning to strangers, kiss difficult child (since she is the only one who will let me besides the dogs) goodnight and try to stay steady. I know that if I stay strong and steady, things will even out. But I will have to go get a blood test to check my levels (hormones and iron, cholesterol) this week so I can get that B12 thing. It's not a shot anymore - it is a squirt up the nose??? So, thanks for letting <em>me </em>vent too.</span></span></span></p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="hearts and roses, post: 211177, member: 2211"] [FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=3][COLOR=navy]Yes, I do think it's a product of just too much going on all at once...and very much connected with the financial problems we're experiencing, the not knowing how much or if H will have full time work this winter. He always does and there have been a week here and there when we've worried like this, but not this bad. I think I'm feeling stressed over things that I have no control over such as easy child finding a car and being approved for the financing. I don't agree with her choice about the car, but she is 21 and it's her choice. However, I am a cosigner on her loan, which in my opinion means I should have at least a little input (something she doesn't agree with). H has been a bear lately...I mean loud and bossy and controlling and if you don't agree with him, he just gets so pissy and loud. If you ask him anything or question him about anything, instead of a normal response, his tone is harsh and his voice booms. He's obviously frustrated and angry over things also...we can't seem to come together on anything. We argue and snipe at one another and I hate it. I feel like I have in the past before H slips....and since he refuses to get any support in his recovery, I feel like he's walking a tightrope right now. Too much pressure. And then there is the puppy wreaking havoc in our home...easy child trains her when it's convenient to her. She doesn't seem to think there is anything wrong with allowing the puppy free reign in the house even if it means she may pee on my wood floors. Also, the puppy will only sleep with me. So, there she is in between H and I. I love her, I do, but I can't keep these hours I'm keeping. I go to bed around 11:30 and have to get up to take said puppy out at 5:30. Then I try and go back to snooze until 6:30 when I have to get up for work. I'm tired. I even called my DR for a B12 shot. I haven't been exercising, which I think would help me with 80% of what I'm feeling. Then, this coming Friday/Saturday my loco sister and I are driving 6 hours to my other sister's house in PA so we can meet my other sister from WV and have a family meeting about my mom and her care, etc. Nightmare. This morning H dumped an entire cupe of coffee all over the kitchen floor. He cleaned it up with paper towels. No mopping, no wiping down, nothing. It got all over the floor, table and a chair. The dogs were licking everything and everywhere. I asked him if he considered mopping the area....he said, "Well I knew it had to be done at some point" as he was walking out the door. Hello, mouse problem, remember?? A-hole. So, I cleaned it all up before I went to work. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=3][COLOR=navy]Aaaaaaaaaaagggggghhhhhhhhhhh. I just want to run off to a cabin in the woods, scream my head off and then start a nice fire and have a cup of tea or something bundled under a big blanket in my favorite jammies - ALONE. A week or so ago, I thought it would be nice if H and I could run off alone for a night or weekend, if we even could afford to, but now I just want to be left alone. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=3][COLOR=navy]on the other hand, I truly believe in sending out positive vibes and energy...finding the silver lining, being optimistic, and all that jazz. It's difficult, but I'm doing it. I smile at people in my building and at the stores, say good morning to strangers, kiss difficult child (since she is the only one who will let me besides the dogs) goodnight and try to stay steady. I know that if I stay strong and steady, things will even out. But I will have to go get a blood test to check my levels (hormones and iron, cholesterol) this week so I can get that B12 thing. It's not a shot anymore - it is a squirt up the nose??? So, thanks for letting [I]me [/I]vent too.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT] [/QUOTE]
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