Saturday started off ok, the kids were outside playing and my little guy comes running in crying saying difficult child punched him in the stomach, I didn't see it and wasn't sure he wasn't exagerating so I wasn't greatly distressed, talked to difficult child and found out he did it because his little brother was being verbally annoying. I gave difficult child a choice between reading alone in a room for 1 hour or running around with me for the day(5 hours of shopping) He chose the shopping which I felt would give the rest of the house a break anyway. Sunday my 7 yo daughter tells me he hit her with a stick, she has been telling tales to get kids in trouble, I couldn't see any mark so I used it as an opportunity to show her the value of an honest reputation, that I couldn't protect her from something I didn't see happen if I didn't know she was going to tell me the truth, I tried to get the whole story from other kids but they didn't see anything either so he didn't get any consequence(wish I had). Later that day he gets upset at losing a game with his 14 yo brother and he gets into a fight of sorts where he tries to shut a manual garage door down on my older son...at one point it was on his neck with his hands holding it off. This experience even scared my difficult child. I am a little numb with shock and also mad that I even let the p-doctor talk me into trying another stimulant. I know that the stimulants are behind these behaviors. When I explained that he wasn't allowed to play with the other kids unless I was within eye or ear site I had an hour long tantrum. I was soo good, doing everything right until he began taking the door and trying to smash the doorknob through the wall at which point I did lose it a bit...sorry I am not feeling quilty about it at all, I lasted a long time but I have limits too. He was spanked. I then got back into the right mindset and helped him calm down with a bath and lotion. Today was our p-doctor appointment, I relayed the details of my week-end and I think I now have her considering BiPolar (BP) as my difficult child's major diagnosis. finally. I get to discontinue the Focalin. Still not at the point where she will consider a first line mood stablizer but I think the Zyprexa and fish oil alone will be enough for the short term future. Come next Sept. and the stress that brings and who knows what then but I am one step closer to having a p-doctor that gets it.