Im the one whose mother didnt hold me because I stiffened in her arms. It was too much work and ,although I was an infant only, I believe she took it personally.
I never felt unconditionally loved by a very selfish mother either, cedar. I feel yvour hurt. My mother had a bad childhood as her mother blatantly favored.her brother. But is that an excuse? We didnt repeat what our mothers did. It hurt my mother to be second best yet she did repeat it with her kids. There is no excuse for cruelty to a child.
Many times her smirk let me know id never measure up.
She never did resolve her issue with her own mother. Im glad I get it...it was her, not me. Maybe in the afterlife, she finally gets the wrong of it.
