Thank you. I hope you all k ow what it is like to be in such wise company.
This impact has affected us all. I have been down that deep dark Rabbit Hole and I have no intention of being pulled back in. I have gained so much strength and knowledge here.
That is just it. It depends and we do what we feel is right and what we can tolerate.
I wish oh how I wish there was an easy button.
Parent, wife, sister, brother. Parent stand our so much more. Our bond is so unique and seemingly indestructible no matter the cost to our hearts.
I suppose the trick is to do what we can endure, depending upon our instincts to support but not enable; and not lose ourselves in the process. Profound wisdom from each of you. Thank you. It is activating this wisdom that is the nerver ending challenge. I do feel that hollow place I call mother filling with compassion and fear. Compassion to help, and fear of being swallowed whole by the potential for another dip in the addiction roller coaster.
It is what it is, I am who I am. I can’t fix it I can’t control it nor can I cure it.
I can offer to guide my wayward child and protect myself with good boundaries in the interim.
I have looked back through old posts of mine and others seeking guidance and wisdom. I am seeing a pattern of strength and growth in myself and my husband as we carry on with this dance of ours with our son.
Someone wisely said (I am sorry I forget who) that detachment was a process and a continuum of actions not a hard and fast action. I see that now.
Onward wirh yet another challenge and faith and hope for enlightenment with our son.
