Forums
New posts
Search forums
What's new
New posts
New profile posts
Latest activity
Internet Search
Members
Current visitors
New profile posts
Search profile posts
Log in
Register
What's new
Search
Search
Search titles only
By:
New posts
Search forums
Menu
Log in
Register
Install the app
Install
Forums
General Discussions
The Watercooler
Coming up on a year...
JavaScript is disabled. For a better experience, please enable JavaScript in your browser before proceeding.
You are using an out of date browser. It may not display this or other websites correctly.
You should upgrade or use an
alternative browser
.
Reply to thread
Message
<blockquote data-quote="Jungleland" data-source="post: 276279" data-attributes="member: 4598"><p>On June 7th, it will be a year since my suicide attempt. So many thoughts are flying through my head. I really didn't think this "anniversary" would bother me. Boy was I wrong! </p><p> </p><p>I am starting to have the same feelings and thoughts I had a year ago. School is almost over for the summer and my anxiety is climbing. </p><p> </p><p>On August 4th, I will have 1 year clean from abusing prescription drugs. I was abusing soma, xanax and hydrocodone. I am very involved in NA, go to meetings, involved in service which helps so much.</p><p> </p><p>But since Aug. 4, I have not had anything for my depression or anxiety except Paxil. I really feel that I need a medication evaluation. My insurance does not cover psychiatry so my family doctor prescribes my medications. Not sure he is comfortable with changing things, I am very honest with him. Finally, honesty!!!! Feels good.</p><p> </p><p>Anyways, I am talking with my sponsor, sharing at meetings, working my steps, but June 7th loomes over me and frightens me. I will not be alone on the days prior, the day of or after. Will be attending a huge NA function on the 6th, so I know that no one will allow me to do anything stupid. I just hate the stinkin' thinkin'.</p><p> </p><p>I relate to Star's response to Steely's post. I have moved so many times with the unconscience thoughts of "this place will be better, problems will be left behind". I feel the deep desire to jump ship once again, things would be sooo much better in...Timbucktoo... But my conscience mind knows, doesn't matter where I am, once the excitement and relief of being somewhere new wears off, back to the stinkin' thinkin'!</p><p> </p><p>I don't think I have shared all of the above with all of you before. Going on a year free of narcs, makes me feel proud and wanting to share with you, my family.</p><p> </p><p>Sorry my post sorta jumps all over the place, my mind is a bit like that right now. </p><p> </p><p>I love you all for being here for me and my family. </p><p> </p><p>Hugs, Vickie</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Jungleland, post: 276279, member: 4598"] On June 7th, it will be a year since my suicide attempt. So many thoughts are flying through my head. I really didn't think this "anniversary" would bother me. Boy was I wrong! I am starting to have the same feelings and thoughts I had a year ago. School is almost over for the summer and my anxiety is climbing. On August 4th, I will have 1 year clean from abusing prescription drugs. I was abusing soma, xanax and hydrocodone. I am very involved in NA, go to meetings, involved in service which helps so much. But since Aug. 4, I have not had anything for my depression or anxiety except Paxil. I really feel that I need a medication evaluation. My insurance does not cover psychiatry so my family doctor prescribes my medications. Not sure he is comfortable with changing things, I am very honest with him. Finally, honesty!!!! Feels good. Anyways, I am talking with my sponsor, sharing at meetings, working my steps, but June 7th loomes over me and frightens me. I will not be alone on the days prior, the day of or after. Will be attending a huge NA function on the 6th, so I know that no one will allow me to do anything stupid. I just hate the stinkin' thinkin'. I relate to Star's response to Steely's post. I have moved so many times with the unconscience thoughts of "this place will be better, problems will be left behind". I feel the deep desire to jump ship once again, things would be sooo much better in...Timbucktoo... But my conscience mind knows, doesn't matter where I am, once the excitement and relief of being somewhere new wears off, back to the stinkin' thinkin'! I don't think I have shared all of the above with all of you before. Going on a year free of narcs, makes me feel proud and wanting to share with you, my family. Sorry my post sorta jumps all over the place, my mind is a bit like that right now. I love you all for being here for me and my family. Hugs, Vickie [/QUOTE]
Insert quotes…
Verification
Post reply
Forums
General Discussions
The Watercooler
Coming up on a year...
Top