bring myself to go out in public today. I met with several doctors this past week - so many things going on in my body. So many medications floating about my system. The physical changes; my face - my entire appearance has changed so much. husband & I were supposed to meet his sisters for a late holiday gathering tonight at a fairly upscale restaurant. I couldn't do it. I can't bring myself to go out unless it's to a grocery store or doctor's office. And I'm struggling to do that. I encouraged husband to go with-o me - he refused. I wished he had.