SeaGenie, text your son if you want to, tell him you love him and let it go. Pack your bags and head out of Dodge. Use the time now to practice letting go of focusing on your son and start focusing on you. You've been taking care of his needs for so long, there is a great likelihood that you have forgotten to identify and address your own needs. Spend this weekend (if it feels right to you) looking at what your needs and desires are and start making those happen. What kind of life do you want to have now, at this age? What adventures lie ahead of you now? Where is your hearts desire? What do you LOVE to do? What brings you joy? What makes you laugh? What brings you peace? How would you like to spend the moments of our life? What brings you that sense of deep fulfillment and satisfaction? It's your life SeaGenie, go grab it!