Tomorrow I get to do the insurance intake interview. This will also enable me to get more information on evaluations (yes, I will be asking for neuropsychologist evaluation) and changes it treatment and psychiatric hospital options (if we can go out of county, etc) So, YAY!
One of my big frustrations is that she does not seem "textbook" on anything - at least not anything I'm coming across. It reminds me of when I was first told, in not so many words, that there was something wrong with my son. I researched every keyword on his IEP and lots of things kinda fit, but it just didn't seem right. It took another year and a half, a verbal mention by a psychiatrist that he was on the border of Autism (that had never been documented for some reason - might be in the files they NEVER let parents see where they say how the parents a nutty too lol), a different state and two different schools, for Aspergers to emerge - perfect fit! So needless to say when I'm researching for DD1 I go exploring on every possible tangent I can and I'm just not finding her fit.
So, I watched her with new eyes tonight, while praying "creepy" didn't show up.
After school today, she:
Went for a bike ride
Came with me on 3 quick errands including the library and she got two books (wanted 3, but the more she gets the less she actually reads)
Went for another bike ride to find friends
Didn't find friends, went next door to play with dogs
Wanted to go shopping for fabric, I found her some fabric here, she started on two pillow patterns
Asked if she could have early dinner (she'll make it herself)
Played with her Ice cream making kit - toy kit uses bags and ice, not a machine
Asked if I'd teach her to use the sewing machine 100 times (I told her tomorrow, since I'm still sick and exhausted from just doing the necessary stuff)
Painted with gel paints
Convinced her sister to finally try carrots and they ate them for "dessert" like chips in front of the TV for 10 minutes
Asked her brother to cnvince me to teach her to use the sewing machine
Decided brother should get the machine out of storage for her and she could find instructions on internet.
Harassed brother about her idea for 15 minutes.
Asked me to give her something to do (this used to be the standard with her, and no matter how many suggestions I made, they were ALL boring. When I would physically direct her to a task that she seemed excited/interested in, her interest would only last 5 minutes. This was LONG before she started on any medications. So now my standard reply is to suggest one chore, and one fun activity and I'm done suggesting)
played on computer
Asked me to give her something to do
Crocheted for 5 mins
FINALLY it was bedtime.
She took her melatonin, brushed her teeth, washed up, and said goodnight.
10 minutes later, she came out telling me she didn't want to go to bed because she still had a lot of things to do. Of course, I told her she could have done them when when she was asking me to tell her what to do. She fell to the floor and started to weep - depressive episode here we are.
So, I've never seen her exactly like this. It was more often just the boredom stuff like explained above. Is this mania/hypomania? My gut is saying YES! Again, I've NEVER seen her like this before - similar but not quite.
So the next frustration is deciphering everything. the medications could be causing this, but not necessarily because she's behaved similarly in the past, but she's growing and changing, so this could be something 'emerging' that was more subtle in the past. Same with "creepy". That started showing it's face while she was on medications she had been on for 8 months. Continued to show it's face through medication changes, and showed again after being "stable" on a regimen for 2 wks. Or it could be all due to medications. UHG I am so in information overload.
Steely Medwash sounds very appealing right about now. I have to get more info on phosps. She's only 10, and the only one I know of around here (45 mins away) is usually filled with teens on involuntary commitments - that increases the mom anxiety factor when she's not in imminent or even "I think she just may do something this time" danger. by the way thanks for asking her age - I've now added that.
