I am depressed. It's not just a blue period, I know the difference. I don't want to go back on a AD; I read Abbey's post below and I have been there done that - I don't think this will last. I am thinking my depression has more to do with this stupid winter dragging on and my need to dig my hands into the soils of my gardens. easy child is doing great at school. I have no worries about that, not even worrying about paying for her upcoming sophomore year! difficult child is holding her own in school - *hopefully* passing just enough to graduate in June; and I'm not even freaking out if she doesn't because I know that she will be okay. H hasn't been drinking and we've been doing well. Really well. I mean, we still have some work to do on intimacy issues, but we're getting there. I've been on this excellent eating program and I am progressively losing weight. I'm down 5 lbs and 9.5 inches. I went to an excellent conference last weekend and had a girls night out this past weekend to celebrate my friend's birthday. But I am always feeling tired, like I haven't slept in ages. I feel lethargic and paralyzed with despair. At times it is a real task to be hopeful and content. I hate trudging to work and leaving my house. I just want to take a month off and fiddle around my yard and garden, read, and not be interrupted with all the daily BS. I go to bed and sleep for about 7 hours and I still feel like I can hardly drag my b.u.t.t. out of bed in the AM. It stinks. I barely want to shower or get dressed. I mean, I do it, but I don't want to. I don't feel like I'm dying depressed like...just mildly depressed. The last time I called my DR to be put on something, she talked me out of it and said I needed to get more sleep, diet and exercise, which I've done, and I am still feeling like crap.