hi to everyone wow i haven't been on at all today, except once and quick. i hope everyone's day was good, and difficult child's are happy and ok. This can be such a hard time of the year for them, and hence us Well, i took difficult child to the dermatologist today, I lucked out and pushed for an appointment. immediately after seeing the rash on her. We are cleared I am happy to say she has some very bad rash, we got two very expensive ointments and can't shower much for the next 4 weeks, and have to use special cleansing cream. It's only in one spot and i caught it right away. Anyway, things past two days have been really really off with her i'm sad to say. I have noticed that each thanskgiving for some odd reason she crashes hard. I was hopeful it wouldnt' happen now with medication and therapy in place. yet today alone she had anxiety attacks all over the place. Was so so anxiety ridden in the truck on way to dr. wondering if it woudl be a woman because rash was on back of legs and near her bottom. Than we got there she wouldnt' remove her jacket or open it at all she sat still without moving for hte most part, so anxiety ridden the entire time. Almost urinated on herself in the office waiting for the dermatologist to come. Got through that, got cleared got her to show him rash she had meltdown in the public bathroom there, she wanted me in teh stall with her yet we don't do that anymore she refused to go. Got home she couldn't sit still was spinning in circles, hyper, jumpy, argumentative, listening forget about that. She was hard all day long, i could list all of the instances yet impossible is a good word to describe. She melted down at bedtime again hysterical crying (like she used to) over i dont' even remember. She has party at school tomorrow that i'm even going to and baking alot of stuff for she cried about that and her fears of hte party??? Fears again suddenly..... telling me she can't stay still i'm hot i feel funny something is wrong iwth me, make it stop. on and on it went. Broke down and sat on floor outside of her room just crying so i got down on floor and just held her quietly and rocked her. she is now downstairs on the couch infront of the t.v. believe it or not it calms her. I'm hoping to be able to put her down soon. Had medication at same time today, nothing different going on, she knows nothing of my back and forth over thanskgiving believe it or not we do all that via text because he's always at work. So, i'm giong to have to call the dr. tomorrow. I'm sad i wont' lie. It's been a challenging week, I was holding onto the fact that she was moving at leaps and bounds and now i see this. I have no clue how she will be in school tomorrow. It's disheartening to see her make such strides, making friends, eating lunch, going to school on time, going to be smiling all the past mos. so, are we doing the meltdown again?? last time it lasted for mos on end. this *****.