I really wanted to post yesterday but my computer died. I wrote here before about difficult child failing all last semester due to absences and not making up work, and how I tried to convince her that she needed to get on the school sleep schedule during winter break or she would feel too sick when she had to get up for school again. Also, she insisted her sleep medications (trazodone) did nothing and she wasn't having trouble sleeping anymore. She was in fact sleeping well without it so I let her stop taking it. Well, on Sunday she did all the things she needed to get ready for school on Monday, which was the first day of the new semester. But in the morning, she said she had slept really badly and was too tired, and within 5 min she got a migraine, or said she had one. I let her sleep an hour more, hoping it would go away and she could go, but it didn't, so I had to give her the fiorinal medications and this knocked her out and she slept til one and then seemed fine. I agreed it was pretty late to go and she could just go tomorrow. Well, Tues it was the same. I had tried to help by giving her one of her old sleeping medications, which is an antihistamine and couldn't hurt, but she still said she couldn't sleep, and got a migraine as soon as she woke up. THis time I just gave her the fiorinal and let her sleep til ten. Then she gave me the same " I can't go in late" thing. She refuses to go to school for a partial day and has a long list of excuses why it "doesn't work", none of which make sense to me. Both days she said she really did want to go to school and I could tell she really did, at least on Monday. So last night we tried again. COuldn't sleep again and too tired to even move. She claimed she was didn't even have the energy to sit up. No migraine though. Now she's asleep. I don't know what to do now to break this cycle. I can't stand it anymore. I just don't know what to do. This not going to school gives me such a feeling of horror and shame. I feel like hiding myself. We already tried homeschooling last spring and summer and it was a disaster. She doesn't want me to ask for a 504 because of what happened last year and because she has a horror of standing out from the other kids (I think her absences and fails have already made that happen). On Monday I agreed to give her a few more days of doing it on her own before trying for a 504. Now, I think to myself, how can a 504 or anything help if she never goes to school? I have chronic pain issues so I have a lot of vicodin. Yesterday it was so hard not to take one just to make the mental anguish go away, but my rule for myself is I can only take it if I have pain, and I didn't have pain. The last thing I need is a drug problem on top of everything else. I'm going to call the psychiatrist's office when they open and ask for a better sleep medication for her. I'm afraid to face the school but feel it's in better to stay in communication with them. I'm just so embarrassed right now and don't expect anyone to believe this situation or be willing to put up with it. Any ideas? Anyone want to contact the school for me? I'm too ashamed. What the heck can I tell them? THat she'll start coming tomorrow? Next week? I have no idea. Right now I'm convinced this will go on forever.