The worst thing is not knowing how he is, what he's feeling, how he will get though this. Despite all the things difficult child has done he is still very much a little boy. He is very emotional this time away, not like last time. Last time he was just angry, this time all he does is cry. I feel like he'll think no one cares, like everyone has left him, like we just put him there to "get rid of him" NOT TRUE!!!!!!!!! I still want to get him home but how????
God help me get though this!!!!!
