Had the panel meeting last night with the youth offending team.... well when i say we had it, i mean we attended and read the report but difficult child wasn't notified so wasnt there, we are meeting again now on a different date!!
The report from his officer states he is at a HIGH risk of re-offending... surely SW should be taking that into account?
The worker from mental health services has phoned. I am meeting with her in 2 weeks to discuss my concerns about difficult child's mental health, and she is meeting him when they return to school after the easter break.
Do i tell them about the messages he has written on my bedroom wall saying he wants to die? Do i tell her he tried to stab himself (unsuccessfully) in front of me last year? (he only scratched himself).. do i tell them he has been threatening to commit suicide since he was 6 yrs old, although he has never carried it out? Do i tell them about the controlling, manipulating, bully that he is with me when no one else is around?
I also have my first meeting with the suport group in 3 weeks
just found out he has been excluded from school AGAIN, school are now saying they will have to do a risk assessment on him as they feel that even they cannot offer him the specialist treatment they feel he needs
SW is now saying that its not working him being in foster placement and that he isnt working with them or anyone!! It sounds to me that they will begin trying to force me to have him here!
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME
I cant take anymore
i just want to run away, hide and never come back
I cant be me anymore
I dont want to be me
I dont want to be in this bad place
