I had a mtg earlier this week with Risk Management SW for kt. She noted I was having significant troubles with word finding (worse than usual), my right eye is completely closed & won't open for the life of me & I fell in front of her. I tried to brush it off but didn't succeed. kt has been expressing her fears & concerns over my health. I have reassured her that I'm taking care of everything. Having said that, SW called team lead & mental health case manager. MH case manager call CPS. I've been reported to CPS. After all that I've done & advocated for the tweedles I am now being reported to CPS. kt will soon have a guardian ad litem; after that I have no idea what is in store for the tweedle household. I am ANGRY ~ I am humiliated & fearful. I have never raised my hand in anger; rarely raise my voice. I'm more of the quiet but deadly (haha) kind of parent. I spent the afternoon in my room ~ ignoring kt & all that's been going on here. Just could not take another thing coming my way. Another decision or argument from kt. I've not said this out loud very often. I know I can say it here with-o judgement. I truly regret adopting the tweedles. Once more I'm down on my knees. I informed Risk Manager SW that she did what she felt needed to be done. I also told her that I'm losing my capacity to care where & how the tweedles turn out. You can take just so much before you lose the part of you the cares. I will always love my children ~ caring or even liking them is a whole other story.