I have to tell husband that I'm going to go in to the hospital. Not the current doctors' hospital, but one I had been in previously. The problem is husband thinks I better just go back to work ASAP and really, nothing is wrong in his mind , I'm making it up, and he is going to be MAD when I tell him this. The reality is I weigh 91 pounds now and clearly I'm a mess. I cannot eat all this....meal plan, which now includes 6 CLIFF BARS A DAY plus all this other gigantic food portions. This past wekend I gained weight and I ate barely anything...so I am crying. The doctor just stares at me and says nothing when I talk to him and he makes me feel creepy. He just types away in his laptop, and I swear I am getting worse. I feel like tomorrow in the "family session" husband is going to hear how the dr won't give me a note to go back to work and he will be so angry at me!!!! And he'll also hear that I really am not "well"- He will disagree and think I'm an idiot.But behind the dr's back I made another call to Renfrew where I had been. I can be in by the end of the week. I'm not sure what to do. Who wants to go anywhere, but I am losing it, and am holding it in. You know, everythings fine. Tonight we're going to the movies. See, nothing is wrong! I have been pretending to husband that NOTHING IS wrong, and am acting like I can't wait to just get that note and go back to work. But, i don't feel well and I've really been lying to him about my stuff. I'm just mad and a hater right now. Forgive my craziness!