I totally understand. I am 32 and have my tubes tied. So no more babies for me. But I crave them from time to time. The scent, the trusting eyes, snuggles and grins.
My solution? My superintendent babysits her 14month old granddaughter but she needs to do another job for an hour each day at noon. So I offered to go stay with the baby for that hour so that she doesn't have to bring the baby out in bad weather etc. So each day I get my 1 hour of baby fix'in. She is the sweetest little thing with the strangest shade of green eyes I have seen! I'm smitten but not enough to babysit more than that hour Monday to Friday
Melissa