I left a sobbing wee difficult child at school for his first day. *** I expected it. *** It went relatively well. He has had bouts of excitment and anxiety all weekend, but woke up this morning excited. Once at school, tho, when the teacher wrote his name on his lunch card, he fell apart because he doesn't know how to write his full first name or last name. I left him with his para shortly after that, so I don't know. *** I want him to have a wonderful day. I also know, tho, in order to keep the supports he has and get them written into his plan, they're going to need to see his behavior. Its hard to send your kid off and "hope" those things. *** I've also allowed my in-laws' judgement of me to get to me. I have been keeping an inventory of every move I make with difficult child, second guessing everything. Gotta get past that. *** If I knew anyone who had any creditials at all in successfully raising difficult child's and who would be willing to take my difficult child, you can bet I'd have him there in a heartbeat. Even if they weren't willing, I'd be on their doorstep learning their strategies. *** Anywho, just needed a shoulder this morning.