My son just called. He said he found a therapist who will see him next week once his insurance is verified. He wanted to come home.
I told him something like this: I do not have the strength anymore for this. I realize it is inappropriate for me to request/demand you do things that you do not want to do. You are a grown adult who can do what he wants. No mother can or should make conditions about your life. I can only make conditions about my own life and space. And it is all too much for me to want things for you that you do not want for yourself, and to have to do battle with you over conditions in my own home. I have grown weary wanting for you what you do not want for yourself.
He tried to speak but could not find the words. I guess there was nothing more really to say after words no longer worked.
I gave the phone to M. They spoke a minute or so. I heard M say to him, Ok, come.
M said, he really wants to change. The next drug test will decide things.